i feel so blank
i feels so blank right now im in one of my moods where something is wrong but i have no clue what me and megan where outside earlyer and she said she was worried about me but to be honest im kinda starting to be worried about myself everything is biulding up inside me like my family just everything and i dont know what to do i know i have people to talk to but i dont like talking to people i dont want to put my stupid problems on them when there is ways i can deal with them i might have to break down everyonce and awhile but i rather do that i really dont know what is wrong i have just been thinking all day bout everything that has happend my whole life and i know why i dont like life i know why i dont like myself i know why i dont like people to give me stuff i know why i care about everyone else but my self cause if people havent noticed i never put myself first because i know how it feels to not have some one care so i always put others first and when i do put myself first its never good well thats bout it i was hoping writing this would make me feel better but nope ......