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By now, most of David's family probably knows what happened. The engagement's off. And if you guys could see me now, I doubt a lot of you would really want to be around me. It's weird...I'm happy and yet I look like I'm falling apart. I picked up smoking, I'm unable to sleep in my own bed by myself because I feel the need to be having sex just about every night...yeah. I've become something completely different. Would you guys still feel like you knew me? Would you really want to be around me again if you had the chance? I seriously doubt it...
Oh yeah, the guy Zac I mentioned in one of my last entries...I'm with him now. David saw the whole thing coming cuz he knew things would end up falling apart once we left. I'm not sure if I believe him when he says he's ok with it. But we tried. And he understands how I felt because he wasn't here to make sure my needs were being met. So it's not all one person's fault...it's no one's fault really.
Oh yeah, the guy Zac I mentioned in one of my last entries...I'm with him now. David saw the whole thing coming cuz he knew things would end up falling apart once we left. I'm not sure if I believe him when he says he's ok with it. But we tried. And he understands how I felt because he wasn't here to make sure my needs were being met. So it's not all one person's fault...it's no one's fault really.