hey kids...
::yawn:: its early
so the dance was pretty good...i cant believe the year's almost over...
so..i was at college night the other night..and it really hit me for the first time...for as long as i can remember ive wanted to go to college...i just couldnt wait to be on my own and to have freedom and responsibilty...but now that it's only a year away..i want to delay time...i need another year to prepare myself...i mean once you leave for college, you really dont ever live at home again for the rest of your life...maybe on and off every once and a while but not for a whole year...everything changes after high school...and suddenly im not ready for it...and as much as i think it won't be that difficult living more than 5 minutes away from my friends..it will be....i cant imagine starting such a huge chapter in my life without my friends..ive practically lived with some of them since kindergarten...and whenever ive had to meet new people or make new friends, ive always had an old friend along with me...a sort of security blanket...college wont be like that..as much as i try to pretend that we're all going to end up in the same school...we're not....everyone takes a path in life...and ours separates at the end of senior year.....and what happens if everyone else moves on and has the college experience of their life but i miss out because im trapped in the past and lock myself in my room every night writing endless e-mails to all of my DE friends...its just not something i want to face on my own...but more and more im realizing that im going to have to..
...just thinking...
"you who were born with the sun above your shoulders
you turn me on, you turn me on
you have to know
you who were born there where beauty is existence
you turn me on, you turn me on
your body heals my soul
all the pearls of china fade astride a volta
don't sew bee-lines to anybody's hide
save your poison for a lover who is on your side"
i love you kids
call me every day
<3 kathleen elizabeth
(that was for you dal)
so the dance was pretty good...i cant believe the year's almost over...
so..i was at college night the other night..and it really hit me for the first time...for as long as i can remember ive wanted to go to college...i just couldnt wait to be on my own and to have freedom and responsibilty...but now that it's only a year away..i want to delay time...i need another year to prepare myself...i mean once you leave for college, you really dont ever live at home again for the rest of your life...maybe on and off every once and a while but not for a whole year...everything changes after high school...and suddenly im not ready for it...and as much as i think it won't be that difficult living more than 5 minutes away from my friends..it will be....i cant imagine starting such a huge chapter in my life without my friends..ive practically lived with some of them since kindergarten...and whenever ive had to meet new people or make new friends, ive always had an old friend along with me...a sort of security blanket...college wont be like that..as much as i try to pretend that we're all going to end up in the same school...we're not....everyone takes a path in life...and ours separates at the end of senior year.....and what happens if everyone else moves on and has the college experience of their life but i miss out because im trapped in the past and lock myself in my room every night writing endless e-mails to all of my DE friends...its just not something i want to face on my own...but more and more im realizing that im going to have to..
...just thinking...
"you who were born with the sun above your shoulders
you turn me on, you turn me on
you have to know
you who were born there where beauty is existence
you turn me on, you turn me on
your body heals my soul
all the pearls of china fade astride a volta
don't sew bee-lines to anybody's hide
save your poison for a lover who is on your side"
i love you kids
call me every day
<3 kathleen elizabeth
(that was for you dal)