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what an entirely uninteresting date...
hah! I've beat the system, I win.
Now for the next step, maybe I should forget about Jeremy. What dO you say? I really don't know what the point of that would be. How much difference would it make? Its not as if I am not doing anything with other guys because of bb or as if I would do anything with other guys if bb were out of the picture. I guess that it is a psychological type of thing, like...I shouldn't allow my brain to perpetuate the idea that there is a possibility; because by doing this I build up an idea of him that might not even be him, I expand his memory out of porportion. I am practically setting my self up for dissapointment; even though I acknowledge this it could still happen quite easily.
At the same time though, it makes my life happy. I will just be walking along the path and I will think of Jerm and just smile, then often start skipping and laughing at myself. It is quite enjoyable.
Alllso...I met Ryan in town today *I filed for my passport!!!!!!! yeah!!!* and it made me realize how wicked awesome Jeremy is. It was weird, he has been trying to meet up with me, then we finally did and he didn't have anything to do, he rode his stupid little mini bike around and did wheelies. He was high which really bothered me. And he talked to his friend Cupcake for a while then they went off to zoobomb (riding mini bikes down hills really fast drunk...I think). It made me not really want to try very much to hang out with him.
On another note, I managed to spend lots of money today. Oh my, I bought a bubbletea, dakota I must tell you this story. I bought a pair of those awesome pants that are comfy and loose and give ya a nice ass. I got a blue sort of teal color, they are pretty. Then I realized I had missed the bus so I went to Ross and bought a pair of pants and a sweater which I am going to return because I am bothered that I spent so much money today. Almost 200bucks, that does include the passport...but still. Anywho, I also got my mom three small chocolates from the die sweiz chocolate store, that costed $3, it was silly but they are pretty. Carol works there, I didn't know that, she is nice. The end.
hah! I've beat the system, I win.
Now for the next step, maybe I should forget about Jeremy. What dO you say? I really don't know what the point of that would be. How much difference would it make? Its not as if I am not doing anything with other guys because of bb or as if I would do anything with other guys if bb were out of the picture. I guess that it is a psychological type of thing, like...I shouldn't allow my brain to perpetuate the idea that there is a possibility; because by doing this I build up an idea of him that might not even be him, I expand his memory out of porportion. I am practically setting my self up for dissapointment; even though I acknowledge this it could still happen quite easily.
At the same time though, it makes my life happy. I will just be walking along the path and I will think of Jerm and just smile, then often start skipping and laughing at myself. It is quite enjoyable.
Alllso...I met Ryan in town today *I filed for my passport!!!!!!! yeah!!!* and it made me realize how wicked awesome Jeremy is. It was weird, he has been trying to meet up with me, then we finally did and he didn't have anything to do, he rode his stupid little mini bike around and did wheelies. He was high which really bothered me. And he talked to his friend Cupcake for a while then they went off to zoobomb (riding mini bikes down hills really fast drunk...I think). It made me not really want to try very much to hang out with him.
On another note, I managed to spend lots of money today. Oh my, I bought a bubbletea, dakota I must tell you this story. I bought a pair of those awesome pants that are comfy and loose and give ya a nice ass. I got a blue sort of teal color, they are pretty. Then I realized I had missed the bus so I went to Ross and bought a pair of pants and a sweater which I am going to return because I am bothered that I spent so much money today. Almost 200bucks, that does include the passport...but still. Anywho, I also got my mom three small chocolates from the die sweiz chocolate store, that costed $3, it was silly but they are pretty. Carol works there, I didn't know that, she is nice. The end.