I Like Your Pants Around You Feet
So lately everything has been plain. Nothing has felt GREAT or HORRIBLE. I decided to kick Kelsey out my life because I just couldn't handle being her toy anymore. That didn't work out too well. Everything I came across reminded me of her and I couldn't handle that either. I prefer being tortured by her than myself. So, I couldn't stay away from her any longer. Whatever, I know better than to get my hopes up. -_-
So yeah, we barely talk. I don't have a job. My dad is using my car. So now I am forced to stay home, unless someone decides to invite me somewhere with them AND pick me up. It's horrible.
Today I was just pondering how the hell I'm going to pay all my fucking dues and I honestly don't know how I am going to do it. I have to pay $950 for my dorm and I can't get my transcript from FSU until I do so. On top of that, I have to start paying off for my loans. Don't know how the hell that's gonna work either because I have no money. All this stress is accumulating and it's really bugging me. ON TOP OF THAT, I feel alone so although I have great friends, it's different than having a significant other being like "Jose, it's going to be alright -rubs back-." Damn I miss that. I really do.
Basically, at this point in time, my life sucks. I feel like a waste of space sometimes. It gets to the point where I hate being invited anywhere because I have to put out there that I have no money. Here's how an invited usually goes: "Hey, wanna go out to eat?" "No money." "Oh alright, talk to you later then." -___- It's not like I expect them to pay for me, it just sucks ass to not be able to do shit when I don't have money.
Well this is it. Nothing out of the ordinary.
So yeah, we barely talk. I don't have a job. My dad is using my car. So now I am forced to stay home, unless someone decides to invite me somewhere with them AND pick me up. It's horrible.
Today I was just pondering how the hell I'm going to pay all my fucking dues and I honestly don't know how I am going to do it. I have to pay $950 for my dorm and I can't get my transcript from FSU until I do so. On top of that, I have to start paying off for my loans. Don't know how the hell that's gonna work either because I have no money. All this stress is accumulating and it's really bugging me. ON TOP OF THAT, I feel alone so although I have great friends, it's different than having a significant other being like "Jose, it's going to be alright -rubs back-." Damn I miss that. I really do.
Basically, at this point in time, my life sucks. I feel like a waste of space sometimes. It gets to the point where I hate being invited anywhere because I have to put out there that I have no money. Here's how an invited usually goes: "Hey, wanna go out to eat?" "No money." "Oh alright, talk to you later then." -___- It's not like I expect them to pay for me, it just sucks ass to not be able to do shit when I don't have money.
Well this is it. Nothing out of the ordinary.