Your Body's Here With Me, But Your Heart and Your Mind Is Still With Him VS. Fuck That Nigga
Today I have spent most of the day doubting everything, precisely, my progress (or lackthereof) with Kelsey. What makes me think I can make her leave her boyfriend? Isn't that rather rash of me to believe that I have that much power over a woman's mind? It's cocky of me. I don't like it. Anywho, I've had this window open for two hours wondering what the hell I should write, considering I feel that this was turning into a complete failure. She's supposed to come over on Tuesday and I don't want to do anything, not now, knowing that she has a boyfriend. I can't. I would feel terrible.. Anyway, this feeling of a pending failure is so overwhelming that I almost started crying about it. I want this girl so bad that I can almost say I love her (but believe me I won't be saying it to her any time soon). I'm babbling I know, shut up and just fucking read. I want this to work out so bad, and I feel like it's going no where. I feel like I'm just making the biggest fool out of myself, once again. I talked to Ale about it, and I kid you not, I was so... down about it that I was one statement away from giving up. Ironically, I was watching a movie called Made of Honor, where this guy who's the biggest player falls in love with his best friend (who's a woman) and just so happens to meet some guy while she's away in Scotland and plans to marry him. Use your imagination. Now, here's where it gets serious. The guy she is going to marry is named Colin. Guess who's boyfriend is named Colin too- hers. After a while, the guy is convinced he's meant to be with the girl so his guy friends start telling him "HEY IT'S TIME TO STEAL THE BRIDE!" Call me fucking stupid, but that's a sign right?! What the hell am I supposed to do...? Let the battle begin...