Im Not Sure How I Feel
It's been soooooooo long wow. Alot has happend but i dont really feel like sharing any of it. I m just to lazy to write right now. I spend bout 3 days with jess and my baby Chelle' it was fun. We went to the lounge shit ( im not gonna try to spell it) then we went to see the devil wears prada i liked it, was good movie. The last day we stayed we all kinda talked bout stuff ( jess, chelle,&me) it was funny. Chelle' and didnt just sleep there lol wink wink.
Im sooo tired right now idk what im gonna do 2day, im weely bored, im feelin a lil bugged right now idk why im getting anoyed by everything. I just need to sleep thats what i need to do. I need to leave my house im tooo bored here. My summers goin to waste but then again it always does. Im having lonley issues, i miss my squishy i wanna talk to her i know shes bored right now. But theres always drama between her and her gurl and it just buggs me cuz i feel so uncomfertable. I get mad too cuz they fight bout dumb things, gina never trusts jess and that sux cuz jess wouldnt do anything to hurt gina, shes just gotta learn to relax i like gina shes cool and nice but i know i bugg her sometimes cuz im the "X" and all but i dont concider my self that i just say im jess's best friend.
im gonna do this greaser thing now well acually rockabilly but there almost the same. I think i can pull it off i really wanna do this its like how i feel, i love the style and music plus the girls are soo beautiful and well i know im good lookin lol. I just need some fuckin money to go buy what i need, im supossed to go visit my buddy Ana so she can help me complete my thing cuz i just wanna look different. I've wanted this fir awhile but im fuckin poor so i cant really do it. I need a fuckin job. Yea so my greaser thing will happen soon.........................i hope.
I keep haveing emotion mix up, i love my michelle' but sometimes its too much. Im still scared to just let me love her its too hard for me to just forget all that i went through. But its funny cuz i was scared of her hurting me and it truns out that i hut her first. Not once ppl but twice and this gurl still forgave me im happy that she did that i really am, im glade that i didnt lose the good thing in my life. No wait shes the best thing in my life i love her soooo much she treats me like i wanna be treated. One thing thou theres never a dull moment between us. It's always laughter and jokes i love how we can be so funny and open with eachother. I talk bout her all that time and i miss her all the time but sometimes it is too much sometimes couples need there space. One partner will alwyas want some space. Sometimes i want that but then i really wanna talk to her. I guess im just used to her being every where with me. We go almost every where, im just confusing. Ima get her something really cute for her birthday, i think she'll love it cuz shes always talking bout it.
I guess i did have alot to say afterward, i hope most of this stuff makes sense.
PEACE BIACHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol lol lol lol lol lol LMAO
AWWW im GONNA PEEEEEE
***MiA***