Shit Happens
MEH!!!!! i Hate putting depressive things in writing. But i have to, to make me feel a little better....you know blabbering it out to ..the computer.
I guess today i am pretty nervous. Due to having to finnish with someone for the second time, Who happens to be my best mate who i was going out with, But finnished with because i did not love her. But she pleaded for me to come bac k so i did, Only to cure the guiltyness that i was drowning in.
Doing that made it worse because...i know i don't love her now again...so i have dug myself another bloody hole. Because now she trusts that i wont hurt her again...and i will i know it.i Might even lose her as a mate,I am worrying that i shall have a cold heart all my life and never love.
AHHH thats much better ...the half of it is out. WOOOO!!
I guess today i am pretty nervous. Due to having to finnish with someone for the second time, Who happens to be my best mate who i was going out with, But finnished with because i did not love her. But she pleaded for me to come bac k so i did, Only to cure the guiltyness that i was drowning in.
Doing that made it worse because...i know i don't love her now again...so i have dug myself another bloody hole. Because now she trusts that i wont hurt her again...and i will i know it.i Might even lose her as a mate,I am worrying that i shall have a cold heart all my life and never love.
AHHH thats much better ...the half of it is out. WOOOO!!