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Ok so the computer finally works again and hopefully it stays working for awhile this time. hope everyone out there is doin ok, i know you all missed me. not much is new since my last entry. well i guess i could think of a lot to say but it would be too much for what little time i have. i finally got a new cell phone last week. and it's a camera phone too so that's pretty snazzy. the day after i got my phone, i saw dick dale in concert, which was really cool. that guy is like 60 or something and still kicks ass. fucking brilliant. i decided to leave my phone at home that night because i didn't want it to get lost or fucked up; then when i got to the show i found myself wishing i had a camera with me. i am retarded. aside from all that, not much new has happened. the girlfriend situation is still the same. she still plans on moving to texas. i'll probably be going with her for a couple days to help with the move and such. hopefully i can find a new belt buckle or shirt out there. everyone i've told about her leaving (except maybe johnny) is happy for me. people seem to think i want her to go or something, and that apparently i'm no fun when she's around. that pisses me off. yes, she is a bit more conservative than most of my friends or me, so i can't be quite the slobbering drunken pirate that i'd be otherwise, but damn. i don't know, maybe people don't realize that there has always been a positive side to our relationship because i bitch louder about the negatives. so i guess it's my fault. not that i'm begging for sympathy. it just seems like everyone's true opinions on the matter are starting to shine through and they're a little different than i expected. when i hear people hinting at me about how i'm no fun anymore because of her, i can't help but wonder what's being said when i'm not around. if that's what people truly think, then i guess they're in for a little surprise when she leaves and nothing about me changes. the fact that i still won't want to stay out til 4 in the morning on weekdays will still remain. unfortunately, i have a job, and so i have to be up around 6 every morning. i guess i have this problem of liking to have a little money in the bank. my bad. and since i've been in the habit of getting up early every morning for work for the past 6 years or so, i'm left with the slightest touch of a sense of responsibility (emhasis on slight). i.e. I choose not to make a habit of getting drunk or stoned out of my mind on nights which i have to be up early the next morning and then just calling off or not showing up for work. when you make almost 500 dollars a week, getting fired = bad. no matter how much i hate my job. and i guess the fact that i hate having to work with a dizzying, vomiting hangover makes me a big pussy. now, when saturday nights roll around, i'll still throw down. girlfriend or not, i will get shitfaced. the only difference there would be if she wasn't here is that i'd probably be high on god knows what too. hence me not being any fun. oh well, fuck it. and so much for me not having much time to post