I never meant for it to be this way...
Im a fucking idiot...I was played for a fool once again....and i saw it coming and did nothing to stop it....like a train full of steel hitting me and not killing e...but just crippling me...I lost a fantastic friend.....I gained more distrust in the human race....no one wins in that situation...but all i can say is that i brought this on myself...im just thankful for the friends who still accept me...and hope to one day be back to hanging out with another....i know you're not on LJ buddy...but maybe someone can relay this to you...I'm truly sorry Jeff...this was stupid and completely asanine...I hope that one day this can be resolved and i hope you know that i completely accept that this is all my fault....