AWESOME... SO FRIGGIN AWESOME

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ok uhhh we had a game... it was white castle, joeys new school. it was fun to play i guess. my mallets came unglued in twice! lol things are finally cooling down. maybe cause its lack of drama? idk but things feel normal. if there is such a thing. im content, im happy, somthing i rarely see, and can remember once. not just setteling with things beacuse its always been that way, even if i hate it. but im truly content. of course theres still some morbidness, but thats beacuse its become a part of me, i guess u can say. but yea, its jus so freaking wierd. neways. HC pics in. last week i got invited to a barbazon thing... which is a modeling school. they dont garuentee jobs... u have to get the jobs urself. but it has acting too like comershials. and all kinda awesome shit like that, where u make a hell of alot of money just for wearing make up, or for saying one line! neways... they had an interview... it was schedled for halloween. and i was kinda reluctant, cause im not ur typical teenager. and my styles compared to them, is horrible off. but my interviewer, jenni, was cool with it. so i go anyways... its just one of thoes things if u do/dont do... u wonder what if.... its not like ima get picked any way. so i go there. and they have soo many ppl. a girl in lime green. they had twoclones behind me dressed in pink, from one of them stores i loathe. and a gurl with what i concider TRUE rocker-like clothes on, not that crap you find in seventeen, and on avril. and every bodys all fancy. im feeling so very much outta place and out of my element... i had my brand new boots on my hair was straightened, i had new curodory pants on - plum colored pants and a black shirt. and of course the star. and i saw courtney robert. ugh! i got nothing against her, shes a cool gurl, but i was hoping i would know NO ONE!! especally anyone from ses or achs.... =/ so i got really nervous... i wanted to quit right then and there. but i went and and listen to them talk, and tell their stories, and explain what happens and what not. and write down the answers to the questions for the interview.and we seperate in groups, by our interviewer, mine was jenny. she had green eyes and reminded me of caitlins mom. and she kept saying all this stuff. how im so pretty, my nails are pretty, im at the perfect height, my skin is so clear, i got the whole ethenic look going on which is awesome, my natural hair color... awesome, my eyes.... what color are they?! they're gorgouse... beautiful smile, straight teeth, and kept going on and on about it, and every thing excpt for the teeth thing i am TOTALLY against. lol its kinda obvious my teeth are straight, excpt for one, cause i got hit in the mouth wiht a baseball, but only me and my mom see that. neways... jane and jennifer landry, laurie dupre, brittany bourg, they all got in, and found out monday, the day after. i was so friggin nervous, and anxious. i had to wait two days. so i just got more nervous and anxious. i Finallly got the call back today.......*drum roll*................... I GOT IN!!! I MADE IT YAY!!!! i think its so funny, jane jen laurie and brittany - the thin white gurls... that make u think of twiggy*model of the 60s* the popular ones, the ones with the "pretty" clothes, the cheerleaders. and then theres me, kt - the odd looking one*what jenny called exotic...*, deff not skinny, the outsider, the loner, the freak. lol
i just cant explain it to you, how truly awesome this is.... in so many ways....
FIN