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I'm going to Roosevelt, im pretty psyched, it should rock hardcore, especially since now i have some friends there that havent already graduated. Im really nervous about being a part of the drama there, because, i will feel alone, its unfamiliar terf, and it makes me uncomfortable in front of people to act, especially when im trying to make good impressions, i dont know what to do in those situations. im also scared of trying out for the musical, because mrs. Glave doesnt know me, sheaff knows me, even though he can piss me off, i can act like whatever the fuck i want, and he knows that i have some talent, but im not very good in auditions. Believe it people, i get really nervous in that situation, i normally never aget nervous about anything, but that is the one. Im also a little confused as to what happened today with anna. We were rocking out hardcore this morning at the farmers market, which was amazing, mainly cuz of the rain. it was really pretty, i went to work, which was kinda fun, though super busy. Me and anna cooked dinner, which ended up with her egg drop soup, which is mind blowingly delicious. then we took double shots of rum and vodka. got drunk, had a romping good time, wait till i was sober, drove out to Chris's house, she drank more. we had fun, came to my house, and found my toe in bloody shreads with out me knowing. she bandaged me up, it was really sweet and touching, she took care of my toe, when she was drunk, and could hardly stand, but she just jumped into action when we saw my toe. later we wenmt to my basement, and she just collapsed into the come down off the booze. after that, we got energized, but like ten minutes before i took her home, she had a mood swing, and started saying things that arent true. it hurts when she thinks these things. i love her so much, and i know she loves me too, i just wish we could end amazing nights without these mood swings. i really do.