I still believe in your eyes
I haven't a choice but to move forward, maybe it's my lack of sleep or my over analytical way of thinking that I deduce all of these ridiculous notions like "Oh shit i'm a bother" or "I'm too overbearing"
Atleast I hope so, so far i've been proven wrong in ever negative perception.
Maybe this is my defense mechanism so if this, which is going exactly as i've wanted it to, fails...well I wouldn't have expected much anyways...
Truthfully I expect the best. I can't say I can make a clear definition of love just yet, but I know that this isn't lust.. This is something greater than that. I am willing to invest however long it takes, if all my senior year is wasted, so be it...She is worth my all, my fullest efforts, my most trying patience..I want her to just be happy, I can only hope that its me that can accomplish that...
Right now I enjoy this time we spend, very much so..
I'm utterly crazy about her, I wonder if she knows. Hiding it and acting normal is my typical mask, but what i'd give to hug her a little longer or kiss her..
Well before I have a complete mental shutdown i'll update later.
Atleast I hope so, so far i've been proven wrong in ever negative perception.
Maybe this is my defense mechanism so if this, which is going exactly as i've wanted it to, fails...well I wouldn't have expected much anyways...
Truthfully I expect the best. I can't say I can make a clear definition of love just yet, but I know that this isn't lust.. This is something greater than that. I am willing to invest however long it takes, if all my senior year is wasted, so be it...She is worth my all, my fullest efforts, my most trying patience..I want her to just be happy, I can only hope that its me that can accomplish that...
Right now I enjoy this time we spend, very much so..
I'm utterly crazy about her, I wonder if she knows. Hiding it and acting normal is my typical mask, but what i'd give to hug her a little longer or kiss her..
Well before I have a complete mental shutdown i'll update later.