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this past year was really really difficult. i lost my first cousin & a nephew. the person i could probably spend the rest of my life with wants nothing to do with me. my mom is going through surgery because they found something that could be cancerous. everyone that graduated my year in highschool is already getting their degrees & you guessed it im not. i had about 3,000 in my savings account & after feeling sorry for myself all that money is gone with nothing to show & so many other things but we just wont get into that...time to sort through my memories & expriences. pack up the useful ones, get rid of the bad ones, & make room for the new ones. its time to let go of a lot of things that i may want but dont need & that in itself is so hard. you know how they say how you start off your year is how you spend the rest of your year.. its so true. i started this year alone & im ending it alone too.
hopefully it wont be a repeat this upcoming one.
i need new user pics. i need to start using my other LJ's that ive started but never wrote in. i need to hear new music & find new hobbies the year is ending & here i am starting out all fresh again.
christmas is in 10 days & i havent bought one gift. i dont even know what i want for christmas.. actually i do know what i want but, its something you cant buy.. its a person actually so, cross my fingers & hopefully everything works out for the best. i work two jobs & no money to show for. im freaking out because i still need to buy my gifts.
I'm thiking about buying me a Jeep, Wrangler..
hopefully it wont be a repeat this upcoming one.
i need new user pics. i need to start using my other LJ's that ive started but never wrote in. i need to hear new music & find new hobbies the year is ending & here i am starting out all fresh again.
christmas is in 10 days & i havent bought one gift. i dont even know what i want for christmas.. actually i do know what i want but, its something you cant buy.. its a person actually so, cross my fingers & hopefully everything works out for the best. i work two jobs & no money to show for. im freaking out because i still need to buy my gifts.
I'm thiking about buying me a Jeep, Wrangler..