It's been too long
I haven't been on here in forever. I'm huge. I'm disgusting. I'm a failure. I want to fucking scream. All my work has been thrown in the trash after months of not eating then binging. I'm fucked up in the head. Nothing will ever change that. All I need to do is starve and i will work my way to thinness.
This morning my size 12 jeans don't fit :(
It's my fault.
I've eaten candy,chips,meat,past and everything else.
No veggies.
No fruit.
WHAT A FUCKING PIG!
So what's my plan?
Starting tomorrow I am only eating 0-800 calores. YEAH THAT'S ALOT!!! But it's about 1/3 of what I have been throwing down my fat throat. I'm going to try slowly restricting less and less. Lets see if it works better than doing it cold turkey. Also getting as much meth in me as possible will be usefull. I'M SUPPOSE TO SELL AN IPOD TODAY. THIS MOTHER FUCKER BETTER COME THRU BECAUSE I NEED SOME GOD DAMN DOPE SO I WILL DROP 5 LBS FAST!!! Walking and other exerise as much as possilbe.
I want to cut my fucking throat.
I'm an idiot.
I MUST NOT FUCK UP THIS TIME!!!
FAT ASS! FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
goal one-150
This morning my size 12 jeans don't fit :(
It's my fault.
I've eaten candy,chips,meat,past and everything else.
No veggies.
No fruit.
WHAT A FUCKING PIG!
So what's my plan?
Starting tomorrow I am only eating 0-800 calores. YEAH THAT'S ALOT!!! But it's about 1/3 of what I have been throwing down my fat throat. I'm going to try slowly restricting less and less. Lets see if it works better than doing it cold turkey. Also getting as much meth in me as possible will be usefull. I'M SUPPOSE TO SELL AN IPOD TODAY. THIS MOTHER FUCKER BETTER COME THRU BECAUSE I NEED SOME GOD DAMN DOPE SO I WILL DROP 5 LBS FAST!!! Walking and other exerise as much as possilbe.
I want to cut my fucking throat.
I'm an idiot.
I MUST NOT FUCK UP THIS TIME!!!
FAT ASS! FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS FAT ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
goal one-150