talking to marc...while being stood up by john
MusicAddict51782 [2:04 AM]: what would you say to him if you could say anything
GoldPlated81 [2:06 AM]:um....if I could be rational....it would probably go something like ....can't you tell when someone truly cares about you? why the fuck do you have to treat me like shit. I love you....I've loved you for too long...we've always been friends....everything's been cool....now you're pulling this shit on me? you couldn't pick up your phone and call? or at least leave me a message on my phone? How am I supposed to know what you're doing...
GoldPlated81 [2:07 AM]: I wait around for 2 hours waiting for you to show up....I fell asleep on the swing for god's sake...then you don't show...how do I know you're not in a ditch somewhere....yeah...I worry...go figure
GoldPlated81 [2:08 AM]: at first when you weren't here... I was hurt...but when I found out about you making other plans....I got pissed...first I was pissed at myself, well, I still am....I've been pissed enough at myself that I've come within centimeters of chopping myself up....
GoldPlated81 [2:09 AM]: but people who really care about me....reminded me that I shouldn't let other people control that part of me...so...who should I be pissed at? yeah....you...why the fuck are you doing this shit? What did I fuckin do to deserve it?
GoldPlated81 [2:09 AM]: all I did was cared about you and loved you....
GoldPlated81 [2:06 AM]:um....if I could be rational....it would probably go something like ....can't you tell when someone truly cares about you? why the fuck do you have to treat me like shit. I love you....I've loved you for too long...we've always been friends....everything's been cool....now you're pulling this shit on me? you couldn't pick up your phone and call? or at least leave me a message on my phone? How am I supposed to know what you're doing...
GoldPlated81 [2:07 AM]: I wait around for 2 hours waiting for you to show up....I fell asleep on the swing for god's sake...then you don't show...how do I know you're not in a ditch somewhere....yeah...I worry...go figure
GoldPlated81 [2:08 AM]: at first when you weren't here... I was hurt...but when I found out about you making other plans....I got pissed...first I was pissed at myself, well, I still am....I've been pissed enough at myself that I've come within centimeters of chopping myself up....
GoldPlated81 [2:09 AM]: but people who really care about me....reminded me that I shouldn't let other people control that part of me...so...who should I be pissed at? yeah....you...why the fuck are you doing this shit? What did I fuckin do to deserve it?
GoldPlated81 [2:09 AM]: all I did was cared about you and loved you....