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my mommy tells me that i have no true freinds.. that im being used and that they dotn like me and i said wat makes u think that and shes like ive been alive longer then u i no!! and everytime we get into like family discussions she always brings up that im a follwer and shit liek that.. and that i try to hard to ahve friends and that the friends i think i have arent tru and u cant trust any1.. and it makes me so mad bcuz she has no problem with my sis and her friends!! and ughh... it pisses me off.. im very grumpy!! i hate it cuz like every family discussion we end up talking about me!! and well ughh.. and it gets annoying and yeah i cant go into detail bcuz if my dad saw this he would hate me more then he alrady does... i dotn think my dad loves me.. the way he treats my sister is so differnt frum the way he treats me!! wen theres problems he always wants me to get in trble and i mean it came out of his mouth that all the problems started wen i was born.. i cried so bad that night wen he said that! and yeah he always prefferd my sis and he still does.. mayb its cuz i dont put up with his childish bullshit he loves to play!! ughh.. and i hate it cuz sumtimes i feel liek i hate him so bad!! and ughh.. the way he is the things he does... ughh.. and i jsut cant takeit anymore.. he always has to be the poor little person that has no life and doenst have anything to live for.. well i mean if he hates himself then he can hate himself to himslf but he ahs fuckn kids now a family so fuckn grow up dad okay!! im just so tired of this! IM SICK OF It!!!:(!!i wish my dad was different i wish my dad loved me!! and well he says he loves me but can he fuckn show me!! he doesnt hardly talk to me and he just ughh.. the way he is.. and well ughh!! he causes so much pain to the family.. and i no it isnt his fualt..!! but ughh.. sumtimes i just wanna yell at him so bad and tell him wat i feel inside for him!! :0!!! ughh.. i cant take it anymore!