I'M ONLY CHANGING DRUGS

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I had my stomach pumped
two times my senior year
earned the approbation
of all my plastered peers.
Now I do weekly bleeding
at trendy fuckin AA meetings.
I was a social monster
but now i serve my sponsor.

I choke out cliche confessions
I suck down coffee black
I chain smoke cigarettes
between handfuls of Prozac
Man, I am one sober stallion
I just got my first medallion
My higher power drugged me
I'm letting strangers hug me.

Now I really crave a meeting
all those soothing empty greetings
The Big Book is omniscient
I'm not self-sufficient.
Dependency's still coursing through my blood
I'm only changing drugs.
Self help study, twelve step program
which hollow slogan was it?
"We Found Serenity" in "Day by Day" or "Easy Does It"?

Plant that affirmation seed
our license plates should read
"The Golden State of mindless depression"
They say the devil's in the details of this cunning, baffling habit.
I poured out all my NyQuil
I flushed my Sine-Aid tablets
Don't take others' inventory
Thanks for sharing your sick story

Dysfunction builds the strangest stages
quoting pointless daily phrases
The Big Book is omnisicient
I'm not self-sufficient.
Dependency's coursing through my blood
I'm only changing drugs.
It's a self perpetuating business
you can't cure a lifelong sickness.

Hazelden cleaned out my parents
but my stay was fourteen carat
Inner peace is what we seek
at 1500 bucks a week
Treatment's just a new psychosis
need and weakness through hypnosis
The Big Book is omniscient
and I'm not self-sufficient
Dependency's coursing through my blood
I'm only changing drugs.