Eva, of course you're afraid. We all have a part of us deep down where we fear things, from the tiny things to the big things in life. It's all part of being human. I'm glad you can acknowledge that fear and write about it. The important thing, in my opinion is to have hope. Always have hope.
I'm a cancer patient, and despite being told recently that there's nothing more than can be done for me medically I somehow still have that hope. Sometimes I hope in the form of a miracle, some alternative treatment, or I just tell myself that my doctors will find something new, some new plan - something more they can do that just might cure me.
Never give up that hope, Eva. I truly believe that you will get your lungs, and that you will make it through transplant. I believe that with all of my heart. I am so glad that Justin truly listens to you and doesn't dismiss your fears, or tell you not to talk or think that way... I've always resented that when people have told me over the past few years that "everything will be fine", and "don't think that way" type of comments. Sometimes you really do need to look at the hard truth of a situation and evaluate things and figure out where you stand.
I won't pretend to know much about CF or lung transplants, but I think you have every reason to hold a lot of hope for "getting your life back" as it was before. Back when you had your freedom and could be independent, back when you lived in "the triangle" with your best friends. Will it be easy? Probably not, but often times the best things in life take a lot of hard work. I believe you can and will make it through transplant, Eva. It's true though - there's no guarantees in life. It's a hard thing to accept, but it's true and sometimes I think it's healthier and better to let yourself acknowledge the truth in that.
I pray for you daily. I think it's great that you can be so honest and open with your thoughts and fears. You have such a talent at writing and expressing yourself. That's a gift you have, Eva. Don't keep the fears and feelings all bottled up. Have your cry if you feel that you need to and then go on and enjoy every minute with the special people who surround you. When that pager goes off although you may be very frightened (think fear of the unknown is one of most people's biggest fears) you'll also be at the place where you have even more hope than you have now, and I pray that hope will get you through the fear and comfort you during the hard times.
Truly hope that this has made sense. I know I'm rambling. I just care about you very much and I've never even met you, but I check for an update on your journal several times each day. Going to try my best to get another card out to you in the next couple of days. Thanks as always for being you, for being courageous to share yourself with this world, and for making this would a better and more caring place for your being here and sharing through your beautiful and honest words.
I'm a cancer patient, and despite being told recently that there's nothing more than can be done for me medically I somehow still have that hope. Sometimes I hope in the form of a miracle, some alternative treatment, or I just tell myself that my doctors will find something new, some new plan - something more they can do that just might cure me.
Never give up that hope, Eva. I truly believe that you will get your lungs, and that you will make it through transplant. I believe that with all of my heart. I am so glad that Justin truly listens to you and doesn't dismiss your fears, or tell you not to talk or think that way... I've always resented that when people have told me over the past few years that "everything will be fine", and "don't think that way" type of comments. Sometimes you really do need to look at the hard truth of a situation and evaluate things and figure out where you stand.
I won't pretend to know much about CF or lung transplants, but I think you have every reason to hold a lot of hope for "getting your life back" as it was before. Back when you had your freedom and could be independent, back when you lived in "the triangle" with your best friends. Will it be easy? Probably not, but often times the best things in life take a lot of hard work. I believe you can and will make it through transplant, Eva. It's true though - there's no guarantees in life. It's a hard thing to accept, but it's true and sometimes I think it's healthier and better to let yourself acknowledge the truth in that.
I pray for you daily. I think it's great that you can be so honest and open with your thoughts and fears. You have such a talent at writing and expressing yourself. That's a gift you have, Eva. Don't keep the fears and feelings all bottled up. Have your cry if you feel that you need to and then go on and enjoy every minute with the special people who surround you. When that pager goes off although you may be very frightened (think fear of the unknown is one of most people's biggest fears) you'll also be at the place where you have even more hope than you have now, and I pray that hope will get you through the fear and comfort you during the hard times.
Truly hope that this has made sense. I know I'm rambling. I just care about you very much and I've never even met you, but I check for an update on your journal several times each day. Going to try my best to get another card out to you in the next couple of days. Thanks as always for being you, for being courageous to share yourself with this world, and for making this would a better and more caring place for your being here and sharing through your beautiful and honest words.
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