home again, home again.

[65redroses]

great news!

i am home!

the two weeks of antibiotics is up and there is no real reason to be in the hospital any more.
there's nothing they can do here that i can't do at home.
i have home oxygen already set up so the discharge is easy.

two weeks.

a lifetime.

i have spent two weeks in one tiny room. i haven't left. my only connection through the mail my parents bring from home, the internet connection on this screen and the smell of rain fresh on the gortex brought in from the cold outside.

and somehow... i have seen more of this world from my hospital bed than i think could be possible by traveling.

all of the people who sent me cards and letters and packages... reaching out. giving me a bit of themselves. connecting. caring.

giving a shit.

i have grown while laying down.

i have traveled while staying still .

i have learned while not doing anything at all.

i am in such awe of the world.

i seem to ask questions of the universe and somehow the answers reach me. maybe i see answers where others might not. i don't know.

i just feel so lucky. so open to new ideas. so full of love.

i am a different person than two weeks ago.

thank you.

i am not alone.

i can't explain how much this means to me. how overwhelmed i am. how touched by kindness.