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why is it that when all you try to do is make someone happy, you yourself feel like shit.
i dont want someone to be scared of me. i dont want someone to feel they need to lie to me so i wont get pissed off. i want it so you can tell me the truth and not be afraid of what im gonna do. I WANT YOU TO TELL ME THE TRUTH. i want you to think when your doing something that you kno is going to make me mad, why am i doing this.
i want you to think that you mean the world to me and you wouldnt want to do anything to hurt me because you KNOW i would never ever do anything in the world to hurt you.
i want to you to call me when we are not together, just to say hi or say anything. but instead i just sit there doing nothing thinking about you. wondering what your doing, where your at, if your thinking about me.
its not that often that 2 people care about each other as much as we do. or at least i hope thats true. i hope that we care more about each other then the majority of people.
i wish you could see that i hate my bed when im in it alone, that i hate my car when theres noone in the passenger seat, i hate watching tv when theres noone to laugh with.
and i cant do anything without getting a reminder of you,
i cant watch tv without seeing a commercial for a certin show or movie, i cant go in a gas station without seeing a certin brand of stogs. fuck i cant talk without using a vocabulary thats just between me and you.
i cant drive anywhere without passing a place we have been, or drive my car period without seeing a million things inside it i connect with you, or that are yours. i cant go in my room without seeing something you wrote, ya theres alot of writing, but yours just seems to stick out when all the rest just blends in. all my drawers are full of clothes we bought from the thrift stores we go to.
i cant eat eggs, or see a fireplace. i cant do school work without a red flashing light going off in my head about who i signed up for it with. cant talk to my mom without her asking about you or go to my gramas without them saying tell her i said hi. i could go to sleep and not think about any of it but i just dream about you so i cant excape it.
i guess in a sense your inside of me. and i wonder how this will ever end, of it it will end.
i hope not, i hope it last's forever becuase what keeps me going is the fact that i kno i will see you again if not tomorrow the next day if not that day then sometime after. but the longer it is the more worked up i get.
i dont kno what will happen when i get too worked up, and honestly i dont want to. i dont want to have to wait that long to find out either.
i hope in about 13 hours or so we will be back together finding new things to remind of you, to remind me that there is this person in the world out there that i want to be thinking me of me everytime im thinking of them, but i dont kno what that persons thinking because if i did i wouldnt have to wonder so much. and i wouldnt be writing
this, feeling sorry for myself because they have a life other then me, and i just cant seem to figure out how because i really dont have a life other then her....
i dont want someone to be scared of me. i dont want someone to feel they need to lie to me so i wont get pissed off. i want it so you can tell me the truth and not be afraid of what im gonna do. I WANT YOU TO TELL ME THE TRUTH. i want you to think when your doing something that you kno is going to make me mad, why am i doing this.
i want you to think that you mean the world to me and you wouldnt want to do anything to hurt me because you KNOW i would never ever do anything in the world to hurt you.
i want to you to call me when we are not together, just to say hi or say anything. but instead i just sit there doing nothing thinking about you. wondering what your doing, where your at, if your thinking about me.
its not that often that 2 people care about each other as much as we do. or at least i hope thats true. i hope that we care more about each other then the majority of people.
i wish you could see that i hate my bed when im in it alone, that i hate my car when theres noone in the passenger seat, i hate watching tv when theres noone to laugh with.
and i cant do anything without getting a reminder of you,
i cant watch tv without seeing a commercial for a certin show or movie, i cant go in a gas station without seeing a certin brand of stogs. fuck i cant talk without using a vocabulary thats just between me and you.
i cant drive anywhere without passing a place we have been, or drive my car period without seeing a million things inside it i connect with you, or that are yours. i cant go in my room without seeing something you wrote, ya theres alot of writing, but yours just seems to stick out when all the rest just blends in. all my drawers are full of clothes we bought from the thrift stores we go to.
i cant eat eggs, or see a fireplace. i cant do school work without a red flashing light going off in my head about who i signed up for it with. cant talk to my mom without her asking about you or go to my gramas without them saying tell her i said hi. i could go to sleep and not think about any of it but i just dream about you so i cant excape it.
i guess in a sense your inside of me. and i wonder how this will ever end, of it it will end.
i hope not, i hope it last's forever becuase what keeps me going is the fact that i kno i will see you again if not tomorrow the next day if not that day then sometime after. but the longer it is the more worked up i get.
i dont kno what will happen when i get too worked up, and honestly i dont want to. i dont want to have to wait that long to find out either.
i hope in about 13 hours or so we will be back together finding new things to remind of you, to remind me that there is this person in the world out there that i want to be thinking me of me everytime im thinking of them, but i dont kno what that persons thinking because if i did i wouldnt have to wonder so much. and i wouldnt be writing
this, feeling sorry for myself because they have a life other then me, and i just cant seem to figure out how because i really dont have a life other then her....