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Today I cut a lot of hair. Brad, my Nana, and two of my cousins. I made good money that I really needed. Brad and I might go get burritos(!!!) tomorrow. It's his 22nd birthday so be sure to wish him a happy birthday. He's gonna give me lifting/work out tips.
Today I took two Stacker 3's before I went to the gym around 6:30. My work out buddy Tamara had some. She bought them online and they have ephedra in them. They worked pretty well considering I busted my fucking ass at the gym today. I had a lot more energy and endurance. I also layered a bunch of my clothing. Now the pills are wearing off and I'm not liking the feeling. I feel like I did a bunch of cocaine. I guess ephedra is pretty similar to speed, or as some people have described it, "legal speed". But, it's not legal anymore so whatever. I'm finding that going to the gym has helped me relieve some tension and everything that bothers me comes right out of my pores with my sweat. It feels nice and my mood has slowly gotten better. I'm still not talking to my mother, but the whole situation is not bothering me as much anymore.
I've been pretty good lately. I don't remember the last time I drank alcohol. The last time I smoked a cigarette was Saturday. Haven't touched anything else (besides pot) in who knows how long which is a big step for me. I guess I just can't get into smoking weed regularly like I used to. It bogs me down and makes me feel kind of stupid and I'm really becoming forgetful of things. I won't completely rule it out, I'm just not gonna buy it anymore or smoke as much when offered.
I'm kind of proud of myself for changing, slowly but surely. I'm trying to unwind the last seven years of utter and complete chaos I've put my body and mind through. Normally around this time of the month I'd be really, really depressed because of womanly things, but i'm actually ok.
I feel good. I just wish this shit would wear off already because it makes my heart race and tummy queazy. :[
Today I took two Stacker 3's before I went to the gym around 6:30. My work out buddy Tamara had some. She bought them online and they have ephedra in them. They worked pretty well considering I busted my fucking ass at the gym today. I had a lot more energy and endurance. I also layered a bunch of my clothing. Now the pills are wearing off and I'm not liking the feeling. I feel like I did a bunch of cocaine. I guess ephedra is pretty similar to speed, or as some people have described it, "legal speed". But, it's not legal anymore so whatever. I'm finding that going to the gym has helped me relieve some tension and everything that bothers me comes right out of my pores with my sweat. It feels nice and my mood has slowly gotten better. I'm still not talking to my mother, but the whole situation is not bothering me as much anymore.
I've been pretty good lately. I don't remember the last time I drank alcohol. The last time I smoked a cigarette was Saturday. Haven't touched anything else (besides pot) in who knows how long which is a big step for me. I guess I just can't get into smoking weed regularly like I used to. It bogs me down and makes me feel kind of stupid and I'm really becoming forgetful of things. I won't completely rule it out, I'm just not gonna buy it anymore or smoke as much when offered.
I'm kind of proud of myself for changing, slowly but surely. I'm trying to unwind the last seven years of utter and complete chaos I've put my body and mind through. Normally around this time of the month I'd be really, really depressed because of womanly things, but i'm actually ok.
I feel good. I just wish this shit would wear off already because it makes my heart race and tummy queazy. :[