Ask me again next time...
So that's it.
I've been wrestling with depression - yet again - for the past few weeks, and it's worse than ever before. I've completely run out of any faith or hope I used to have, and despite all of my best efforts, it's not getting any better.
So, you win, universe. I give up. Do whatever the fuck you like, because I honestly don't care. I finally accept that no matter how hard I try, I'm going to die alone, unemployed, and completely lacking in anything I can actually be proud of.
Should anyone happen to be reading this, don't fucking dare let go of your faith (in whatever) or hope (for whatever). It's taken five years of useless struggling to knock mine out of me, and now... well, there's no turning back. Time to just sit down, shut up, and get on with surviving until I finally shrivel up and die.
I've been wrestling with depression - yet again - for the past few weeks, and it's worse than ever before. I've completely run out of any faith or hope I used to have, and despite all of my best efforts, it's not getting any better.
So, you win, universe. I give up. Do whatever the fuck you like, because I honestly don't care. I finally accept that no matter how hard I try, I'm going to die alone, unemployed, and completely lacking in anything I can actually be proud of.
Should anyone happen to be reading this, don't fucking dare let go of your faith (in whatever) or hope (for whatever). It's taken five years of useless struggling to knock mine out of me, and now... well, there's no turning back. Time to just sit down, shut up, and get on with surviving until I finally shrivel up and die.