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it is now one minute till midnight.
I work at six am which means I have to wake up at five am.
assuming I fell asleep this very second I would only get five hours of sleep.
seeing how I've taken all my sleeping pills that are safe to take, and still can't sleep, I'm assuming I'll get closer to two. bloody great.
I don't know why I'm like this. I can't handle being in my bed alone with no music or anything. it distresses me. so I put music on. but I'm still alone when I can't handle it.
sometimes I miss Jordan when he's not around more than others. today is one of those times. especially after like two straight days of being with him.
today Jordan and I were driving from a bank to his apartment when we got stopped at a light. guess who else was stopped at a light at that intersection? hint, he was driving a saab! I pointed him out to Jordan and said "look it's alex!" and then we both laughed for no reason. I'm glad alex didn't see because what HE would have seen would be an ex loveintrest/bestfriend friend and an exish friend who is dating the former pointing and laughing in his direction. it wasnt like that though. I dont know. Jordan and I just make each other too happy I guess.
speaking of Jordan... augh.... I'm sick of having to be away from him all the time. I'm just going to steal him away on my eighteenth birthday and marry him and never have to spend another night crying in bed because I'm alone and can't sleep.
so there.
oh, and umm, did I mention I miss him right now? I do.
but more than even that I just want to SLEEP. not listen to Cherry Poppin Daddies. even if zoot suit riot rawks ass
it's too late to take seroquel...
damn
goodnight
I work at six am which means I have to wake up at five am.
assuming I fell asleep this very second I would only get five hours of sleep.
seeing how I've taken all my sleeping pills that are safe to take, and still can't sleep, I'm assuming I'll get closer to two. bloody great.
I don't know why I'm like this. I can't handle being in my bed alone with no music or anything. it distresses me. so I put music on. but I'm still alone when I can't handle it.
sometimes I miss Jordan when he's not around more than others. today is one of those times. especially after like two straight days of being with him.
today Jordan and I were driving from a bank to his apartment when we got stopped at a light. guess who else was stopped at a light at that intersection? hint, he was driving a saab! I pointed him out to Jordan and said "look it's alex!" and then we both laughed for no reason. I'm glad alex didn't see because what HE would have seen would be an ex loveintrest/bestfriend friend and an exish friend who is dating the former pointing and laughing in his direction. it wasnt like that though. I dont know. Jordan and I just make each other too happy I guess.
speaking of Jordan... augh.... I'm sick of having to be away from him all the time. I'm just going to steal him away on my eighteenth birthday and marry him and never have to spend another night crying in bed because I'm alone and can't sleep.
so there.
oh, and umm, did I mention I miss him right now? I do.
but more than even that I just want to SLEEP. not listen to Cherry Poppin Daddies. even if zoot suit riot rawks ass
it's too late to take seroquel...
damn
goodnight