2007 New Years' Resolutions
So, the days leading up to the new year, as well as today, I have been thinking a lot about the past. About the past 2 and a half years of high school, about 2006, about these past few months. I really wanted to make some new years resolutions for 2007 that meant something. Not something stupid that I know won't happen. Things that I will try to live up to throughout the whole year. So I thought about what I haven't liked in the past..what can I do to change that?
The first thing that came to mind was my happiness. This past year as a whole, I haven't been completely happy. I constantly find myself pitying myself and getting into these spurts of depression. More so than usual. But there's no reason for this. I should be happy. Disregarding my education this past semester. Even looking back to past years, while I've been much happier than I can say I am now, I remember have weeks at a time where I just couldn't seem to keep a smile on my face. Everything seemed to be grim.
So I've decided, after taking all of this into account, my main resolution for 2007 is to be happy. I am going to try my hardest to make this next year as fun as possible. I want to enjoy myself and look back on this year as a good time in my life. ... I can't say I've had a great start so far this year, knowing that instead of smiling and cheering my way into the new year, I cried as the ball dropped. But I did have some good times with friends for the first day. So there's a start.
I've always lived in regret. A kind of "what if" existence. And I can't stand it any longer. I hate looking back wondering how my life would have been different if I didn't make certain decisions. Regretting things can cause so much pain because you never know how much better your life would have been had you not said or done something. In 2006, I have many regrets. Regretable hookups. Regretable words. Regretting the words unsaid. Regretable actions.
That's why this year, I am going to attempt to live without regrets. Forget what would have happened had I done something differently. I will accept the decisions I made and deal with them. Cause ultimately, those are the issues that do matter. Not all of the "what if" situations that will never be solved. Hopefully, living without this regrets will help me focus on the present, and maybe help me make better decisions in the future.
Finally... I am going to attempt to go through 2007 with as little drama as possible. 2006 definitely had it's fair share of it. Friendships gone bad. IB shit. Parental control gone mad. I am just so sick of it all. It definitely doesn't make my life easier, and it could mostly be prevented. I don't want to have to deal with it all anymore.
So with the arrival of this new year. I am throwing all old drama out of the window. I am done worrying about 1st semester grades gone wrong. I am done with family feuds. I am done with the boy who invades my thoughts. I AM THROUGH. Screw it all to hell!
2007 is here.
I am going to live it to the fullest.
Have as much fun as possible.
Keep a smile on my face through good and bad times.
No safety nets.
No excuses.
This is my life.
And here it goes...
The first thing that came to mind was my happiness. This past year as a whole, I haven't been completely happy. I constantly find myself pitying myself and getting into these spurts of depression. More so than usual. But there's no reason for this. I should be happy. Disregarding my education this past semester. Even looking back to past years, while I've been much happier than I can say I am now, I remember have weeks at a time where I just couldn't seem to keep a smile on my face. Everything seemed to be grim.
So I've decided, after taking all of this into account, my main resolution for 2007 is to be happy. I am going to try my hardest to make this next year as fun as possible. I want to enjoy myself and look back on this year as a good time in my life. ... I can't say I've had a great start so far this year, knowing that instead of smiling and cheering my way into the new year, I cried as the ball dropped. But I did have some good times with friends for the first day. So there's a start.
I've always lived in regret. A kind of "what if" existence. And I can't stand it any longer. I hate looking back wondering how my life would have been different if I didn't make certain decisions. Regretting things can cause so much pain because you never know how much better your life would have been had you not said or done something. In 2006, I have many regrets. Regretable hookups. Regretable words. Regretting the words unsaid. Regretable actions.
That's why this year, I am going to attempt to live without regrets. Forget what would have happened had I done something differently. I will accept the decisions I made and deal with them. Cause ultimately, those are the issues that do matter. Not all of the "what if" situations that will never be solved. Hopefully, living without this regrets will help me focus on the present, and maybe help me make better decisions in the future.
Finally... I am going to attempt to go through 2007 with as little drama as possible. 2006 definitely had it's fair share of it. Friendships gone bad. IB shit. Parental control gone mad. I am just so sick of it all. It definitely doesn't make my life easier, and it could mostly be prevented. I don't want to have to deal with it all anymore.
So with the arrival of this new year. I am throwing all old drama out of the window. I am done worrying about 1st semester grades gone wrong. I am done with family feuds. I am done with the boy who invades my thoughts. I AM THROUGH. Screw it all to hell!
2007 is here.
I am going to live it to the fullest.
Have as much fun as possible.
Keep a smile on my face through good and bad times.
No safety nets.
No excuses.
This is my life.
And here it goes...