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Okay,
I'm pretty nervous about this one but I have a good feeling. One of the good kind when you get so excited you can't get to sleep. We talked on the phone for over 4 hours last night, without a bunch of long pauses to fill up time. I know he's had a bad track record but I think it could work.
Matthew, I'm sorry about flipping out on you for helping Jason yesterday. I understand why you did it.
I'm beginning to tell myself that all Jason is good for is getting my hopes up and letting me down. I'm always gonna be second best.. and if he loved me like he says he still does he wouldn't still be trying to hurt me and make me feel guilty about getting a new boyfriend when he's the one that left me in the first place. If I don't try to forget about what we had, I'm gonna be stuck forever. I don't want to be miserable && crying for the rest of my life.
Yesterday.. worst day filled with my parents calling me a whore & thinking I'm on drugs. Plus all the not trusting me to go anywhere. Adam fixed it by showing up @ Coryz. =D
I'm pretty nervous about this one but I have a good feeling. One of the good kind when you get so excited you can't get to sleep. We talked on the phone for over 4 hours last night, without a bunch of long pauses to fill up time. I know he's had a bad track record but I think it could work.
Matthew, I'm sorry about flipping out on you for helping Jason yesterday. I understand why you did it.
I'm beginning to tell myself that all Jason is good for is getting my hopes up and letting me down. I'm always gonna be second best.. and if he loved me like he says he still does he wouldn't still be trying to hurt me and make me feel guilty about getting a new boyfriend when he's the one that left me in the first place. If I don't try to forget about what we had, I'm gonna be stuck forever. I don't want to be miserable && crying for the rest of my life.
Yesterday.. worst day filled with my parents calling me a whore & thinking I'm on drugs. Plus all the not trusting me to go anywhere. Adam fixed it by showing up @ Coryz. =D