y am i so dumb?
is there any thing i can do with out ruining it?
seriously, wuts wrong with me? maybe i think in too many differnt ways... and none of them match up,...
wrestling was so easy, all ya gota do is lift a lill weight, and beat the shit out of the guy,,, y cant everything b that simple? y am i constantly making things worse for my self and every one close to me? im sorry to every one...
i know my whole thinking is pretty messed up, ive been cooped up in here for too long...
i think about things too much... but ey, wut else can i do?
this accident fucked up my whole life, every aspect of it.... my future, my friends, my family and of course girls (shouldnt really b pluarl, but it sounds funny w/o the S)...
i feel so pointless
i know things would work out *perfectly* under more normal conditions, but there is just too much in our way...
i havent been being my self, this accident pretty much changed who i am. i hate this. my whole family thinks im differnt. and not in a good way. all my flaws show more now. i cant stand it. but idk wut else i can do? all the good things about me r gone.
i hate who i have become. i am not who i worked so hard to be.
not to mention i think im addicted to my painkillers.... its prolly a good idea to stay away once i run out next week,,, shitttt!
y cant i just b normal? y do i have to fuck every thing up? y am i so different on a daily basis? i had it pretty good a while ago. i had an idea who i was, wut i wanted, where i was going, and how i felt.... now idk anything.
i dont think i can b happy here. i might as well do my best to help the ppl i truley care about b happy
i just did something slightly artistic, heh,,, and i feel a lot better.... i am gona try and act more normal, more like the way i should b, the way i used to be.
thank you
goodnight
-MarMz
seriously, wuts wrong with me? maybe i think in too many differnt ways... and none of them match up,...
wrestling was so easy, all ya gota do is lift a lill weight, and beat the shit out of the guy,,, y cant everything b that simple? y am i constantly making things worse for my self and every one close to me? im sorry to every one...
i know my whole thinking is pretty messed up, ive been cooped up in here for too long...
i think about things too much... but ey, wut else can i do?
this accident fucked up my whole life, every aspect of it.... my future, my friends, my family and of course girls (shouldnt really b pluarl, but it sounds funny w/o the S)...
i feel so pointless
i know things would work out *perfectly* under more normal conditions, but there is just too much in our way...
i havent been being my self, this accident pretty much changed who i am. i hate this. my whole family thinks im differnt. and not in a good way. all my flaws show more now. i cant stand it. but idk wut else i can do? all the good things about me r gone.
i hate who i have become. i am not who i worked so hard to be.
not to mention i think im addicted to my painkillers.... its prolly a good idea to stay away once i run out next week,,, shitttt!
y cant i just b normal? y do i have to fuck every thing up? y am i so different on a daily basis? i had it pretty good a while ago. i had an idea who i was, wut i wanted, where i was going, and how i felt.... now idk anything.
i dont think i can b happy here. i might as well do my best to help the ppl i truley care about b happy
i just did something slightly artistic, heh,,, and i feel a lot better.... i am gona try and act more normal, more like the way i should b, the way i used to be.
thank you
goodnight
-MarMz