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For the last 6 or so years I have been convinced that 2009 would be my year. Those of you who know me know I constantly have bad luck, car trouble, and other bullshit that bogs me down and makes me furious. Those of you who REALLY know me know I get "pit of the stomach" feelings with about 97% accuracy. Finally, after really starting to understand me/my path/life/what is happening all around me constantly, I'm come to decide that this, will indeed, be a good year.
It's been a long time since I've felt confident in BELIEVING this, let alone saying it. The facts are this: in the last month I have been more PLEASANTLY surprised than ever, in less than 3 weeks there will be a new president, I am actually HAPPY for once (I realized I hadn't really been happy in a long time, fine-yes, okay, alright, not bad-sure... HAPPY-no. No offense to anyone who has come in or out of my life over the last few years, it's always been my fault).
I have no New Year's resolutions, I RARELY do. Like most things I don't see why we (humans) need a designated time to think about this stuff. On top of that, I typically try to do make some sort of improvements throughout the year. Quitting smoking this year, on my own volition-no less, has been a big win for me, and as of today it has been 4 months. I managed to climb out of my shell, this one took a little help, created by constant disappointment in people and the craziness of the fairer sex, and am now dating someone I am fairly sure is not going to disappoint me in those ways I always am. This has forced me to accept the fact that I am even Steven (for every good there seems to be an equal bad, and vice versa, watch Seinfeld), and try not to let it ruin the good-as it always seems to.
This year has seen plenty from all categories for myself. The Jeep is finally gone, Ian moved to Kentucky, I'm still dealing with the same shitty job, I still manage to be alive and have some fun, but I still manage to be incredibly bitter about some things. But it's all starting to make some sense (no this isn't about God, don't worry).
It seems to me that we've never been that far from being able to reconcile ourselves (the entire human population, or at least that of the country we inhabit). It seems to me that there is a general unwillingness IN US ALL to follow through, however. If you refer to a group of people as "them", I'm talking to you (and I'm talking to me). Maybe it's from working with the general public way too long, but it seems so often we do not consider that our actions have affects. I KNOW YOU'VE HEARD THIS BEFORE. There is plenty we've all heard before, but we aren't listening, and if you are listening, you aren't acting, and if you are acting, good for you! I considered creating a proposal, guidelines, structure to this, but that isn't me, and if i were to act in a way, not befitting me, I would become that act, and that act me. IT IS TIME TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR EVERYTHING YOU DO.
Happy New Year everyone. LET'S MAKE IT THE BEST ONE WE CAN.
It's been a long time since I've felt confident in BELIEVING this, let alone saying it. The facts are this: in the last month I have been more PLEASANTLY surprised than ever, in less than 3 weeks there will be a new president, I am actually HAPPY for once (I realized I hadn't really been happy in a long time, fine-yes, okay, alright, not bad-sure... HAPPY-no. No offense to anyone who has come in or out of my life over the last few years, it's always been my fault).
I have no New Year's resolutions, I RARELY do. Like most things I don't see why we (humans) need a designated time to think about this stuff. On top of that, I typically try to do make some sort of improvements throughout the year. Quitting smoking this year, on my own volition-no less, has been a big win for me, and as of today it has been 4 months. I managed to climb out of my shell, this one took a little help, created by constant disappointment in people and the craziness of the fairer sex, and am now dating someone I am fairly sure is not going to disappoint me in those ways I always am. This has forced me to accept the fact that I am even Steven (for every good there seems to be an equal bad, and vice versa, watch Seinfeld), and try not to let it ruin the good-as it always seems to.
This year has seen plenty from all categories for myself. The Jeep is finally gone, Ian moved to Kentucky, I'm still dealing with the same shitty job, I still manage to be alive and have some fun, but I still manage to be incredibly bitter about some things. But it's all starting to make some sense (no this isn't about God, don't worry).
It seems to me that we've never been that far from being able to reconcile ourselves (the entire human population, or at least that of the country we inhabit). It seems to me that there is a general unwillingness IN US ALL to follow through, however. If you refer to a group of people as "them", I'm talking to you (and I'm talking to me). Maybe it's from working with the general public way too long, but it seems so often we do not consider that our actions have affects. I KNOW YOU'VE HEARD THIS BEFORE. There is plenty we've all heard before, but we aren't listening, and if you are listening, you aren't acting, and if you are acting, good for you! I considered creating a proposal, guidelines, structure to this, but that isn't me, and if i were to act in a way, not befitting me, I would become that act, and that act me. IT IS TIME TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR EVERYTHING YOU DO.
Happy New Year everyone. LET'S MAKE IT THE BEST ONE WE CAN.