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Author: animethief92
Title: The Root of All Evil; Part 2-Remove
Theme and number: #8-Dreams;#18-My thoughts alone;#19-Torture; #31-Haunting
Genre: Angst
Warnings: Mentions yaoi
Disclaimer: I don't own, so please don't sue. It's good for me, but better for you.
Fandom: Fullmetal Alchemist (Bluebird Illusion)
Pairing: Edward(Pride)/Envy
Rating: PG-13
Self-centered fear has got a hold of me
Clutching my throat
Self righteous anger running all through me
Ready to explode
A battle isn't something I fear, but I fear for Envy sometimes... At times he can become really weakened from all of the fighting and it almost seems like he'll die.
I don't want him to die... I want him to stay and be with me... I could never say that though; I never say anything anyway. But I'll never tell him about these emotions that overwhelm me whenever he's around.
I remember how angry I had gotten when that Roy Mustang used his flame alchemy and tried to kill Envy. I tried to kill him and I remember that Envy even looked slightly frightened by my ruthlessness, or maybe he was disgusted. I couldn't tell, and I didn't care then. All I knew was the Flame Alchemist had gone too far.
Procrastination paralyzes me
Wanting me dead
The obsessions that keep haunting me
Won't leave my head
Then again, I also dreamed once of Roy and I together.
Him and I were together in the garden in front of some huge building. I was wearing the same uniform as he was and we were sitting together. One arm was around my waist and I was leaning on him.
He said something in my ear, but I couldn't understand what it was he had said. It confused me whenever he pulled me even closer so that I was practically sitting in his lap. That was the time he kissed me, and even today I feel dirty whenever I think of Envy kissing me some day.
I've also had strange dreams where I obsess over Roy Mustang and I keep bothering him to get some attention.
Sometimes we have sex in my dreams and other times it's just a romantic evening together. I think of them all the time; not one dream in particular, but all of them. They go in a sequence, but when I asked Envy once he beat me.
Envy told me to forget the dreams because they were unimportant. I find that hard to believe.
Help to do for me what I can't do myself
Take this fear and pain
I can't break out of this prison all alone
Help me break these chains
Some one spoke to me, but I can't find the voice.
It's begging... pleading for me to kill him. I'd be happy to oblige, but I still don't see the person who is talking to me.
The voice is a male's; weak and fragile it asks to be killed. I can't ignore it any longer, but I must ask who is it? Why do you request assistance with something so easily done?
I search for a body to the voice, but still find none. Then it begins to speak again.
It tells me of its imprisonment and how he needs help to break out. It says he can't do it by himself, but only with my help.
I recognize the voice... it's mine.
Humility now my only hope
Won't you take all of me
Heal this dying soul
Is this truly what I desire? Or is it the 'Edward Elric' I once was who wants to die?
I decide to make Envy kill 'Edward Elric' since I can't find him. When I asked him though, he brought me to Father and told me to tell him everything.
I never speak any words, but they always seem to know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm flawed, or maybe it's Edward who is flawed.
Father doesn't know what to do about the voice that haunts me. I couldn't remember the last time Father didn't know what to do. He always knew what to do.
I can feel my body breaking
I can feel my body breaking
I'm ready to let it all go
I can feel my body shaking
Right down to the foundation
The root of it all
Father tells me just to ignore the voice whenever it tries to talk to me, but it gets harder to forget.
He tortures my mind with his hatred of me, his memories that always end up sad, or just taunting me with my own imperfections. If I think of Envy, he shows memories of Envy trying to kill me... Or him.
Everything seems so confusing now, and I can't handle much more of this Edward. He explains to me that the only way to end my suffering was to end his too. I ask him to tell me, but he says that in due time he'll tell.
How much longer must I wait?
Take all of me
And the drive that keep burning deep inside
Cast it all away
And help to give me strength to face another day
I am ready
Help me be what I can be
I am ready
Come to me
Take me away
Edward tells me that I have to kill him to make him stop. I could never find his body, and he doesn't respond with his voice. Instead, he raises one of the knives I keep with me and points to my throat with it.
He tells me the only way to stop him is to kill myself, and the only way to do that is to desroy all of the markings on me. He says to do it quickly, or it won't work.
I do so with all the speed I could and I can feel myself falling. I'm ready to free myself from him, and he must also feel the same way. Though it's strange how I can't open my eyes anymore... or are they open and I'm just blind?
I can finally see Edward Elric now... He extends a hand and waits for me to take it.
I take his hand and he begins to take me away from the world I know. From Envy... although I'm not sad to watch everything go.
I don't know where I'm headed, or why Edward is leading me there.
He suddenly lets go of me, and once again I feel like I'm falling. I wait to hit the ground, but I'm suspended as I'm falling. Maybe I'll be here for all eternity.
Maybe this is my punishment, or maybe my atonement.
Envy...'>
Title: The Root of All Evil; Part 2-Remove
Theme and number: #8-Dreams;#18-My thoughts alone;#19-Torture; #31-Haunting
Genre: Angst
Warnings: Mentions yaoi
Disclaimer: I don't own, so please don't sue. It's good for me, but better for you.
Fandom: Fullmetal Alchemist (Bluebird Illusion)
Pairing: Edward(Pride)/Envy
Rating: PG-13
Self-centered fear has got a hold of me
Clutching my throat
Self righteous anger running all through me
Ready to explode
A battle isn't something I fear, but I fear for Envy sometimes... At times he can become really weakened from all of the fighting and it almost seems like he'll die.
I don't want him to die... I want him to stay and be with me... I could never say that though; I never say anything anyway. But I'll never tell him about these emotions that overwhelm me whenever he's around.
I remember how angry I had gotten when that Roy Mustang used his flame alchemy and tried to kill Envy. I tried to kill him and I remember that Envy even looked slightly frightened by my ruthlessness, or maybe he was disgusted. I couldn't tell, and I didn't care then. All I knew was the Flame Alchemist had gone too far.
Procrastination paralyzes me
Wanting me dead
The obsessions that keep haunting me
Won't leave my head
Then again, I also dreamed once of Roy and I together.
Him and I were together in the garden in front of some huge building. I was wearing the same uniform as he was and we were sitting together. One arm was around my waist and I was leaning on him.
He said something in my ear, but I couldn't understand what it was he had said. It confused me whenever he pulled me even closer so that I was practically sitting in his lap. That was the time he kissed me, and even today I feel dirty whenever I think of Envy kissing me some day.
I've also had strange dreams where I obsess over Roy Mustang and I keep bothering him to get some attention.
Sometimes we have sex in my dreams and other times it's just a romantic evening together. I think of them all the time; not one dream in particular, but all of them. They go in a sequence, but when I asked Envy once he beat me.
Envy told me to forget the dreams because they were unimportant. I find that hard to believe.
Help to do for me what I can't do myself
Take this fear and pain
I can't break out of this prison all alone
Help me break these chains
Some one spoke to me, but I can't find the voice.
It's begging... pleading for me to kill him. I'd be happy to oblige, but I still don't see the person who is talking to me.
The voice is a male's; weak and fragile it asks to be killed. I can't ignore it any longer, but I must ask who is it? Why do you request assistance with something so easily done?
I search for a body to the voice, but still find none. Then it begins to speak again.
It tells me of its imprisonment and how he needs help to break out. It says he can't do it by himself, but only with my help.
I recognize the voice... it's mine.
Humility now my only hope
Won't you take all of me
Heal this dying soul
Is this truly what I desire? Or is it the 'Edward Elric' I once was who wants to die?
I decide to make Envy kill 'Edward Elric' since I can't find him. When I asked him though, he brought me to Father and told me to tell him everything.
I never speak any words, but they always seem to know what's wrong with me. Maybe I'm flawed, or maybe it's Edward who is flawed.
Father doesn't know what to do about the voice that haunts me. I couldn't remember the last time Father didn't know what to do. He always knew what to do.
I can feel my body breaking
I can feel my body breaking
I'm ready to let it all go
I can feel my body shaking
Right down to the foundation
The root of it all
Father tells me just to ignore the voice whenever it tries to talk to me, but it gets harder to forget.
He tortures my mind with his hatred of me, his memories that always end up sad, or just taunting me with my own imperfections. If I think of Envy, he shows memories of Envy trying to kill me... Or him.
Everything seems so confusing now, and I can't handle much more of this Edward. He explains to me that the only way to end my suffering was to end his too. I ask him to tell me, but he says that in due time he'll tell.
How much longer must I wait?
Take all of me
And the drive that keep burning deep inside
Cast it all away
And help to give me strength to face another day
I am ready
Help me be what I can be
I am ready
Come to me
Take me away
Edward tells me that I have to kill him to make him stop. I could never find his body, and he doesn't respond with his voice. Instead, he raises one of the knives I keep with me and points to my throat with it.
He tells me the only way to stop him is to kill myself, and the only way to do that is to desroy all of the markings on me. He says to do it quickly, or it won't work.
I do so with all the speed I could and I can feel myself falling. I'm ready to free myself from him, and he must also feel the same way. Though it's strange how I can't open my eyes anymore... or are they open and I'm just blind?
I can finally see Edward Elric now... He extends a hand and waits for me to take it.
I take his hand and he begins to take me away from the world I know. From Envy... although I'm not sad to watch everything go.
I don't know where I'm headed, or why Edward is leading me there.
He suddenly lets go of me, and once again I feel like I'm falling. I wait to hit the ground, but I'm suspended as I'm falling. Maybe I'll be here for all eternity.
Maybe this is my punishment, or maybe my atonement.
Envy...'>