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so i am going to briefly touch on the events of last night because i simply cannot contain my terrified excitement. i know it's all been said before but this time it's just very fucking different. last night i had the most REAL conversation i have had with nathaniel in years. we yelled, and then we fucked, and while we were fucking we talked and we cried, and we got together and we worked it out. now i know i'm being really fucking cryptic but this is for him, it's always all for him, and while we all have ours faults nathaniel has his and i have mine and he is sticking by me while i do this because i need him i really do i have always needed him but i have to go and get ready so i can hop on the train and spend the night with him and fuck and suck and love him all fucking goddamn night i am going to soak him up the best i can you just watch me you all just fucking watch me and see how good my shit gets.