BACK AGAIN!!!
so after 123 weeks i finally post again..... isn't that funny?
123 weeks.... 1.2.3........ neat...
so i dont know who even keeps track of their damn LIVEJOURNALS anymore..... all my friends seemed to have said fuck it .....
stephen hasn't posted since april 2006
and jami seems to have just said fuck this joint... so if anybody is reading this... well hey whats up..... are you hot?
lol
so after 123 weeks of not writing anything im sure as hell not gonna write EVERYTHING ive been doing......
but i'll give ya the jist of everything... parties.... working..... eating.... sleeping...... party'n ..... drinkin......... making out....... no sex...... single...... ummmm fucking up at work...... jobless......
thatys prettyu much it.......
oh and getting tickets lots of tickets... concert, parking, spedding....... graffiti, illegal things ya know... im kinda of bad... lol
so lemme update and vent something that happened recently.... so there is this girl.... lets call her.... girlmanA and after knowing this girl for a long time..... high sckewl and after, ive always always always had a thing for her. now everytime ive tried to make her mine... or whatever, she says no.... im persisstant... i always ask..... and then for a while i decided to just say fuuuuuck it and kind of stopped talking to her for a couple of months, then my other friend lets call her girlstenBinvites me to a perty with her and im like fuck yea..... well girlmanA is coming with us and im like thats kewl it'll be nice to see her again... meh whateve right... so we go to the party and the whole night im really not paying attention to girlmanA cuz ive been turned down so many times i just didn't care to waste my night especially since there were so many people at this party so i was having a blast... next thing i know girlmanA s all over me, talking to me like crazy, basically a clusterfuck of love
cuz not only is girlman A all over me, but my good friend girlsten B whom has had a back and forth attraction with me was also like u know up on me too, now i have to say at this point im very happy, i hadn't felt so loved in so long....
and a little side note.... yes alcohol played a strong role this night......
liquor just makes ya honest anyway.... lol
so girlmanA is got her toungue down my throat and so does girlsten B...... and somehow them both coming back to my house gets mentioned but doesn't happen... cuz im unlucky...... but i did stay the night at girlmanA's house but .... nothing happened.... because like i mentioned to her.... she wans't really attrected to me in the first place all she said was " you have no idea.... you have no idea how long..." and just kinda stopped ..... i dunno i mean i waited so long to be that close to girlman A but...... i guess i have to wait another 5years for it to go any further... its so sad
i dunno.... what can i say.... im a sucker.. for girls...... heh..... i dunno.. man but i mean things have been said about girlman liking me before... and its got me hopes up before.... but not this time i figgerd it was gonna end the same way... lol
whatever, as long as shes happy with her loser stoner abusive fuck face boyfrined im happy for her too.... ::rolls eye::
so yea..... im sure if the people who were involved read this they'de know what i was speaking about but..... who cares its true im tired of being pulled aruond and taken for a ride... girls are cruel liers and minipulaters.....
and i willl admit that i am a shallow jerk and i wont ever find love because of it. im not great looking... i mean i joke and say im gorgeous but i know im not... i have bad teeth bad hair and scrawny body..... and annoying voice..... big nose... bah sopm much is wrong with me.... so theres no way i could have a bomb cutey of a model.... with a small waist tight body and perky butt and boobs..... but im not gonna settle for what i can just get.... like a tubby stinky girl cuz im desperate... that would defy the point... i mean they might have me stimulated mentally and i love everything they say or think and stuff but if the physical attraction isn't there im sorry i cant fuck you or imagine myself being with them for a long time.... and thats what i want, i long relationship.
so i dunno if you think im wrong than fuck you, this is me, and im faboo