Torchwood pin
... Shut up. I'll talk about Torchwood forever if I want to! I'm not crazy!
I made this.
I think it's a pretty good likeness of the logo. And evidently so does everyone on the Torchwood communities I posted it to. So I must have done an okay job.
And now, because maybe I AM a little bit crazy, I'll be making more...
I was such a chicken and a wuss at dance today. Not only did I wear my pants instead of my shorts because I had a bout of being terribly self consious about my really rather horrid leg hair in the face of a group of people who still think I'm a girl, but I couldn't finish the whole class, cause I started shaking and feeling faint. I thought I was DONE with that. I mean, I've been a little shaky... but not that bad, not in days! *sigh* Oh well. At least I went, and tried.
Tomorrow I get to find out if the whole bloody store knows about my mental conditions. Seeing as the SM knows, and she's a dreadful secret keeper, and they would have had to discuss at the managers meeting that I'm dropping from lead, and she probably didn't feel the need to keep the promise that it wouldn't leave the room... the whole bloody store probably knows already. Not if the ASM has anything to say, but you know, you can't unsay something once its said, and the SM might have just blurted it out. I KNOW there are members of management aside from her that will not feel the need to keep it a secret.
I shouldn't care. It's not like it's anything I can control, so why should I be ashamed? Yet, whereas there's fear in coming out as trans because I'm afraid of losing my job, losing friends, etc... there's not a lot of shame there. Some. But there's a LOT of shame in admitting that I'm in any way weak, and not being in control of your own brain seems awfully weak to me. I just... I hate that. *sigh* Doctors appointment on Wednesday... we'll see what he says.
Oy... gonna be up a while yet thanks to Torchwood, I bet.
And WHY do I ALWAYS pick the colors of beads I don't have enough of to finish my pattern? WHY are they the prettiest colors in the mix? Now I have to go buy more beads to finish the purple Turlough pin. Grumph. Don't even like purple that much. But there you are.
I made this.
I think it's a pretty good likeness of the logo. And evidently so does everyone on the Torchwood communities I posted it to. So I must have done an okay job.
And now, because maybe I AM a little bit crazy, I'll be making more...
I was such a chicken and a wuss at dance today. Not only did I wear my pants instead of my shorts because I had a bout of being terribly self consious about my really rather horrid leg hair in the face of a group of people who still think I'm a girl, but I couldn't finish the whole class, cause I started shaking and feeling faint. I thought I was DONE with that. I mean, I've been a little shaky... but not that bad, not in days! *sigh* Oh well. At least I went, and tried.
Tomorrow I get to find out if the whole bloody store knows about my mental conditions. Seeing as the SM knows, and she's a dreadful secret keeper, and they would have had to discuss at the managers meeting that I'm dropping from lead, and she probably didn't feel the need to keep the promise that it wouldn't leave the room... the whole bloody store probably knows already. Not if the ASM has anything to say, but you know, you can't unsay something once its said, and the SM might have just blurted it out. I KNOW there are members of management aside from her that will not feel the need to keep it a secret.
I shouldn't care. It's not like it's anything I can control, so why should I be ashamed? Yet, whereas there's fear in coming out as trans because I'm afraid of losing my job, losing friends, etc... there's not a lot of shame there. Some. But there's a LOT of shame in admitting that I'm in any way weak, and not being in control of your own brain seems awfully weak to me. I just... I hate that. *sigh* Doctors appointment on Wednesday... we'll see what he says.
Oy... gonna be up a while yet thanks to Torchwood, I bet.
And WHY do I ALWAYS pick the colors of beads I don't have enough of to finish my pattern? WHY are they the prettiest colors in the mix? Now I have to go buy more beads to finish the purple Turlough pin. Grumph. Don't even like purple that much. But there you are.