Bad day
Had a cry at my therapist's today. Which I suppose was good because I need to let it out sometime. Then came home, called an apartment place, went immediately out to see it, and landed in a scary neighborhood. At a building with scary tenants. Seriously, while seeing the apartment, I could hear a "domestic dispute" going on down the hall. Me scared.
Not living there.
So, discouraged (because the price was really good... probably because people get MURDERED or something), I came home, tried to do a zillion things, got discouraged, ended up in bed with my plushies and whimpering. I watched Xanadu, and that did not help, it is trippy and boring and BAD. I felt like I had to watch it because I rented it from Netflix. I'm stupid.
After a while, I called my mate at work and had another little cry. I was hungry and tired and frustrated and my wrist hurt and my neck hurt and I didn't know what to make for food or do with my time and I was feeling too little and confused to figure it out. Eventually I got it together enough to hit CVS for cereal. While there, I found Nestle Swirl ice cream... which is what I had on my last night in Disney World (they serve it at the ice cream parlor on Main Street), and what I'm having now. It's wicked sweet, almost too much, cause it's got like... cookie goop swirls... but it's good.
I only have to work one shift before my next day off but I don't know how I'm gonna make it without crying at an inappropriate time because it's still all bottled up in there and now that it's started to come out I'm afraid I won't be able to stop it.
Not living there.
So, discouraged (because the price was really good... probably because people get MURDERED or something), I came home, tried to do a zillion things, got discouraged, ended up in bed with my plushies and whimpering. I watched Xanadu, and that did not help, it is trippy and boring and BAD. I felt like I had to watch it because I rented it from Netflix. I'm stupid.
After a while, I called my mate at work and had another little cry. I was hungry and tired and frustrated and my wrist hurt and my neck hurt and I didn't know what to make for food or do with my time and I was feeling too little and confused to figure it out. Eventually I got it together enough to hit CVS for cereal. While there, I found Nestle Swirl ice cream... which is what I had on my last night in Disney World (they serve it at the ice cream parlor on Main Street), and what I'm having now. It's wicked sweet, almost too much, cause it's got like... cookie goop swirls... but it's good.
I only have to work one shift before my next day off but I don't know how I'm gonna make it without crying at an inappropriate time because it's still all bottled up in there and now that it's started to come out I'm afraid I won't be able to stop it.