AND I'M A BLACK RAINBOW AND I'M AN APE OF GOD, I GOTTA FACE THAT'S MADE FOR VIOLENCE UPON
"MY HEART IS THE WORST KIND OF WEAPON"
I spent most of last night dragging this lake
for the corpses of all my past mistakes
sell me out- the jokes on you
we are salt- you are the wound
empty another bottle
and let me tear you to pieces
this is me wishing you
into the worst situations
i'm the kind of kid
that can't let anything go
but you wouldn't know a good thing
if it came up and slit your throat
your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears
rather ones that just don't care
because i know
that you're in between arms somewhere
next to heartbeats
where you shouldn't dare sleep
And Now I'll teach you a lesson
for keeping secrets from me
take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in while [x2]
and did you hear the news?
i could dissect you
and gut you on this stage
not as elequent as i may have imagined
but it will get the job done (you're done)
every line is plotted and designed
to leave you standing
on your bedroom window's ledge
and everyone else that it hits
that it gets to
is nothing more than collateral damage
take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while [x2]
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Sean came over, we watched Phantoms. We cuddled and talked like we always do...I said it earlier and I'll say it again...best friends know just how to say the right thing...He basically told me to snap the fuck out of it and either confide in him or go get help from a therapist...he said it would help me a lot with well what all is going on. I just told him everything on my mind and he listened and stroked my hair and then he told me that I just need to snap the fuck out of it and that I have friends like him that aren't going anywhere no matter who walks out of my life, he said that he will always be there....and it made sense...He just told me that everyone else who turns away from me is missing out on what a great person I am and he is right...they are...this time frame passing by right now is a lesson learned...I am learning how to do this life thing...and while I am not perfect I know I am at least worth knowing.
I just know I am gonna miss Sean when he goes back to Valdosta after the summer....
But I have to do something real special for Sean on his birthday....it's coming up...
Mine is also kinda creeping up...July 3rd bitches....I hope I get a party...I like parties
Well time to go beddy bye and sleep
Work tomorrow at 7:30 ughhhh and I think I need to buy minutes for my phone....there are like thousands of messages I need to hear...I really want to toss it....get a new one and say the hell with it....
Road trip to Miami soon too to visit my friend Jess....she is gonna be stoked!!!
WOOOT
Adam
I spent most of last night dragging this lake
for the corpses of all my past mistakes
sell me out- the jokes on you
we are salt- you are the wound
empty another bottle
and let me tear you to pieces
this is me wishing you
into the worst situations
i'm the kind of kid
that can't let anything go
but you wouldn't know a good thing
if it came up and slit your throat
your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears
rather ones that just don't care
because i know
that you're in between arms somewhere
next to heartbeats
where you shouldn't dare sleep
And Now I'll teach you a lesson
for keeping secrets from me
take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in while [x2]
and did you hear the news?
i could dissect you
and gut you on this stage
not as elequent as i may have imagined
but it will get the job done (you're done)
every line is plotted and designed
to leave you standing
on your bedroom window's ledge
and everyone else that it hits
that it gets to
is nothing more than collateral damage
take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while [x2]
---------------------------------------------------------------------
Sean came over, we watched Phantoms. We cuddled and talked like we always do...I said it earlier and I'll say it again...best friends know just how to say the right thing...He basically told me to snap the fuck out of it and either confide in him or go get help from a therapist...he said it would help me a lot with well what all is going on. I just told him everything on my mind and he listened and stroked my hair and then he told me that I just need to snap the fuck out of it and that I have friends like him that aren't going anywhere no matter who walks out of my life, he said that he will always be there....and it made sense...He just told me that everyone else who turns away from me is missing out on what a great person I am and he is right...they are...this time frame passing by right now is a lesson learned...I am learning how to do this life thing...and while I am not perfect I know I am at least worth knowing.
I just know I am gonna miss Sean when he goes back to Valdosta after the summer....
But I have to do something real special for Sean on his birthday....it's coming up...
Mine is also kinda creeping up...July 3rd bitches....I hope I get a party...I like parties
Well time to go beddy bye and sleep
Work tomorrow at 7:30 ughhhh and I think I need to buy minutes for my phone....there are like thousands of messages I need to hear...I really want to toss it....get a new one and say the hell with it....
Road trip to Miami soon too to visit my friend Jess....she is gonna be stoked!!!
WOOOT
Adam