THEY ARE SAD IN THEIR SUBURBS, ROBOTS WATER THE LAWN AND EVERYTHING THEY TOUCH GETS DUSTED SPOTLESS
"WALKING BY" - Something Corporate
Your grand dad left home for the circus. He was young just like me,
with hope to explore. He married a girl in Virginia.
She could swing the trapeze; they could sleep on the floor.
Your mother was born in December, on the one sunny day that winter gave up.
She had warm summer eyes that flickered like fireflies,
when she stared at the world.
So why do you leave these stories unfinished?
my Cheshire Cat doorstop with tears in your eyes?
Why do you look when you've already found it?
What did you find that could leave you walking by?
She was raised in a New England village.
Then she moved to LA with her firefly stare,
And you loved sunset strip when it sparkled,
You grew up and you sparkled but why don't you care?
So why do you leave these stories unfinished?
my Cheshire Cat doorstop with tears in your eyes?
Why do you look when you've already found me?
What did you find that could leave you walking by?
These nights I get high just from breathing...
When I lie here with you I'm sure that I'm real,
Like that firework over the freeway.
I could stay here all day but that's not how you feel.
So why do you leave these questions unanswered?
The circus awaits and you're already gone.
My Cheshire Cat doorstop with fear in your smile,
What makes it so easy for you to be walking by?
And what did I do that you can't seem to want me?
Why do we lie here and whisper goodbyes?
Where can I go that your pictures won't haunt me?
What makes it so easy for you to be walking by?
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Today has been one of those days you just want to hang out with people.
I called Sean and he didn't seem to enthusiastic about things today but hey, you can't win em all. Hopefully he will be okay. AJ is busy...seems like everyone is including me what with my busy schedule of work and home and maybe a possible phone call from people who give a damn about me...strange thing that giving a damn about someone....I don't get it sometimes.
One of our workers up and quit today and I liked her...TARGET loses another good one because they are corporate PRICKS and that is just sad emo stuff...
I have been in a HUMPH mood all day...trying to make sense of what I did so wrong in my life...I mean I have made mistakes just like everyone else has...but for some reason I feel double the punishment.
I can't fucking call my friends because I am a fuck up and I mean I can understand they really don't care to hear from me, I can hardly blame them it just breaks my heart in two ya know...like really..I do care and I have a fucking heart even if it is black and cut up into a billion pieces and sealed back together with duct tape..it's still beating and I still feel...
BOTH KT's - I miss talking to you guys a lot..I am a fuck up again and I am sorry I haven't called I do love you guys to death, hope Prom was loads of fun...
Well I guess this is where I get all emo and tell you about how I have mistreated my friends and people who care about me, but honestly it is all dust...as Snow Patrol says
"If I've Forgotten What To Say, It's Because All Words Are Dust..." Fuck yeah...that is exactly how I feel...I can show how I love but words don't make a goddamn difference to me...and some of you are the reason they don't. I am the reason they don't...words are an invisible noose....so I must be at the gallows by now.
Well have a good day everyone while I drown in my misery...we all know I am happiest in my sadness so I guess to you this would be having a field day...
Bye
Adam
Your grand dad left home for the circus. He was young just like me,
with hope to explore. He married a girl in Virginia.
She could swing the trapeze; they could sleep on the floor.
Your mother was born in December, on the one sunny day that winter gave up.
She had warm summer eyes that flickered like fireflies,
when she stared at the world.
So why do you leave these stories unfinished?
my Cheshire Cat doorstop with tears in your eyes?
Why do you look when you've already found it?
What did you find that could leave you walking by?
She was raised in a New England village.
Then she moved to LA with her firefly stare,
And you loved sunset strip when it sparkled,
You grew up and you sparkled but why don't you care?
So why do you leave these stories unfinished?
my Cheshire Cat doorstop with tears in your eyes?
Why do you look when you've already found me?
What did you find that could leave you walking by?
These nights I get high just from breathing...
When I lie here with you I'm sure that I'm real,
Like that firework over the freeway.
I could stay here all day but that's not how you feel.
So why do you leave these questions unanswered?
The circus awaits and you're already gone.
My Cheshire Cat doorstop with fear in your smile,
What makes it so easy for you to be walking by?
And what did I do that you can't seem to want me?
Why do we lie here and whisper goodbyes?
Where can I go that your pictures won't haunt me?
What makes it so easy for you to be walking by?
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Today has been one of those days you just want to hang out with people.
I called Sean and he didn't seem to enthusiastic about things today but hey, you can't win em all. Hopefully he will be okay. AJ is busy...seems like everyone is including me what with my busy schedule of work and home and maybe a possible phone call from people who give a damn about me...strange thing that giving a damn about someone....I don't get it sometimes.
One of our workers up and quit today and I liked her...TARGET loses another good one because they are corporate PRICKS and that is just sad emo stuff...
I have been in a HUMPH mood all day...trying to make sense of what I did so wrong in my life...I mean I have made mistakes just like everyone else has...but for some reason I feel double the punishment.
I can't fucking call my friends because I am a fuck up and I mean I can understand they really don't care to hear from me, I can hardly blame them it just breaks my heart in two ya know...like really..I do care and I have a fucking heart even if it is black and cut up into a billion pieces and sealed back together with duct tape..it's still beating and I still feel...
BOTH KT's - I miss talking to you guys a lot..I am a fuck up again and I am sorry I haven't called I do love you guys to death, hope Prom was loads of fun...
Well I guess this is where I get all emo and tell you about how I have mistreated my friends and people who care about me, but honestly it is all dust...as Snow Patrol says
"If I've Forgotten What To Say, It's Because All Words Are Dust..." Fuck yeah...that is exactly how I feel...I can show how I love but words don't make a goddamn difference to me...and some of you are the reason they don't. I am the reason they don't...words are an invisible noose....so I must be at the gallows by now.
Well have a good day everyone while I drown in my misery...we all know I am happiest in my sadness so I guess to you this would be having a field day...
Bye
Adam