And All You Will Ever See Is The Stars In My Eyes, Maybe They Will Guide You Home
"SAVE YOURSELF" - Sense Field
Turn out the lights.
Just say goodnight
To yourself.
May I remind you
When you find you
Are all alone's when YOU, you've
Got to be strong.
That's when they call you
In the night.
He's got your picture
In his mind.
He's got your number
On a paper
At his disposal
Anytime.
Is he really true?
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you?
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who,
Someone who,
You met in a bar.
Or The back of a car.
And for a moment
You felt important
But not in your heart.
'Cause my self esteem -
It's been low.
Go ahead and count.
It's been lower than low.
I know the feeling
Of it stealing
Right out from under me.
'Cause I wanna learn -
How you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you.
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
Loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who
Someone who
Will cherish your name.
'Cause I wanna learn.
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
And loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who,
Someone who'll
Cherish your name...
Cherish your name...
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Last night I watched a special called Sex Mania on Discovery Health Channel...
Very interesting it was about Sexual Addicts and Compulsive activity....
It had several different stories but the most interesting was the gay man from Europe who spent on average 7-9 hours a day online hooking up with at least three unknown men daily. This both intrigued me and disgusted me. He had no idea verbally why he did it when he talked to the counselor. I find this hard to believe and you could see that in his eyes it was if someone had asked him to quit smoking so you could read the addiction. It was kind of crazy.
I get at least 4 or 5 im's daily from guys wanting me to fuck them both random and known people....It really is not flattering and I find it a little annoying. I hate to keep reiterating that I am not interested and why...they always ask why?
Well for one I have morals and values and I am not every other goddamn faggot whom you have come in contact with. I think that is just about the only reason I can give them....I mean jeez guys I know I have a nice cock and am good in bed....but you got to work to get there...I am not that easy...go to a bath house or something....sheesh lol.
One of my friends is now a crack whore in atlanta....he got fired from Target and is now in atlanta with some man who is fucking him and getting him all nice and doped up on meth...and to me I am proud that I am not there....I will not go and rescue him because people have been covering his ass for far too long and he will learn this time or he shall pay with his life, his soul, some disease, or being beaten and put into the hospital....I hope he pulls out of it...we are all worried about him....snake pit...snake pit.
Chrystal called me today and she talked about how the gay community is becoming so downtrodden with drugs and sexual dependancy and I just had to agree with her....she isn't gay and most straight people who have not a lot of gay friends are oblivious....but even she knew...and I just agreed with her and told her that I am glad to not have to be drug around in all that mess.
I realized today that the people in my life really care about me....not that I didn't know that before but today it just hit me.
Sometimes I think I think too much....hahaha
Well I guess my heart is mending....I don't feel a rift anymore....
I just feel altogether sad...go figure Emo Adam....lol
So what else is new...Been listening to Bright Eyes all morning and Conor is the only one who is consoling. I tried all my other favorite music...even Eisley wasn't helping this morning....well maybe a little bit.
But in happy news I may be going into the recording studio some this next week with my brother Aaron and my cousin and fucking around with some shit at my ex girlfriend's house. I am sooooooooooooo stoked...I have been waiting a while for this
I miss talking to YOU +smile+
Have a good day everybody....
And please keep your pecker in it's tight white basket...thanks
Or at least keep snuffaluffagus away from me....
Out Like Terri Schiavo,
Adam
Turn out the lights.
Just say goodnight
To yourself.
May I remind you
When you find you
Are all alone's when YOU, you've
Got to be strong.
That's when they call you
In the night.
He's got your picture
In his mind.
He's got your number
On a paper
At his disposal
Anytime.
Is he really true?
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you?
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who,
Someone who,
You met in a bar.
Or The back of a car.
And for a moment
You felt important
But not in your heart.
'Cause my self esteem -
It's been low.
Go ahead and count.
It's been lower than low.
I know the feeling
Of it stealing
Right out from under me.
'Cause I wanna learn -
How you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you.
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
Loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who
Someone who
Will cherish your name.
'Cause I wanna learn.
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
And loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who,
Someone who'll
Cherish your name...
Cherish your name...
------------------------------------------------------------
Last night I watched a special called Sex Mania on Discovery Health Channel...
Very interesting it was about Sexual Addicts and Compulsive activity....
It had several different stories but the most interesting was the gay man from Europe who spent on average 7-9 hours a day online hooking up with at least three unknown men daily. This both intrigued me and disgusted me. He had no idea verbally why he did it when he talked to the counselor. I find this hard to believe and you could see that in his eyes it was if someone had asked him to quit smoking so you could read the addiction. It was kind of crazy.
I get at least 4 or 5 im's daily from guys wanting me to fuck them both random and known people....It really is not flattering and I find it a little annoying. I hate to keep reiterating that I am not interested and why...they always ask why?
Well for one I have morals and values and I am not every other goddamn faggot whom you have come in contact with. I think that is just about the only reason I can give them....I mean jeez guys I know I have a nice cock and am good in bed....but you got to work to get there...I am not that easy...go to a bath house or something....sheesh lol.
One of my friends is now a crack whore in atlanta....he got fired from Target and is now in atlanta with some man who is fucking him and getting him all nice and doped up on meth...and to me I am proud that I am not there....I will not go and rescue him because people have been covering his ass for far too long and he will learn this time or he shall pay with his life, his soul, some disease, or being beaten and put into the hospital....I hope he pulls out of it...we are all worried about him....snake pit...snake pit.
Chrystal called me today and she talked about how the gay community is becoming so downtrodden with drugs and sexual dependancy and I just had to agree with her....she isn't gay and most straight people who have not a lot of gay friends are oblivious....but even she knew...and I just agreed with her and told her that I am glad to not have to be drug around in all that mess.
I realized today that the people in my life really care about me....not that I didn't know that before but today it just hit me.
Sometimes I think I think too much....hahaha
Well I guess my heart is mending....I don't feel a rift anymore....
I just feel altogether sad...go figure Emo Adam....lol
So what else is new...Been listening to Bright Eyes all morning and Conor is the only one who is consoling. I tried all my other favorite music...even Eisley wasn't helping this morning....well maybe a little bit.
But in happy news I may be going into the recording studio some this next week with my brother Aaron and my cousin and fucking around with some shit at my ex girlfriend's house. I am sooooooooooooo stoked...I have been waiting a while for this
I miss talking to YOU +smile+
Have a good day everybody....
And please keep your pecker in it's tight white basket...thanks
Or at least keep snuffaluffagus away from me....
Out Like Terri Schiavo,
Adam