Memories...
So lately a lot of things have been causing a lot of memories to come back...ones that were happy ones but are now painful ones. I got into a fight with Tim, a bad one. I didn't talk to him all night and partly into the next day. I was wishing Cris was around because it was one of those times where I would just crawl into her lap and start crying...
A few weeks ago I was talking to a real good friend of mine about it his response was it's not too late. Unfortuantely he was wrong. There are a lot of people in my past I wish I could talk to and straighten things out with...Samm, D, sometimes Jessica. I was lucky with Mitch...him more than anyone I wanted things to be good with, to clear the air. That happened, with only a little bit of talking the air was cleared between us.
I don't know what the future holds for me or my husband. At times things seem like they are falling apart at the seams with our families at other times WE want to wring THEIR necks.
I know anyone who still cares and still reads what little I post here will think I may be whining...but I don't write anymore. I need to so bad...I guess I just feel I never have time or any inspiration anymore...who knows maybe I will actually try and force myself to write. Sometimes that helps. Maybe I'm just blocking it because I don't want to hurt.
I've not told Tim any of this I don't think I want to. He worries so much as it is. Worries about bills etc. Hopefully the new year will bring new ideas, and new starts. Wish us luck with the new year...
Kat Out
A few weeks ago I was talking to a real good friend of mine about it his response was it's not too late. Unfortuantely he was wrong. There are a lot of people in my past I wish I could talk to and straighten things out with...Samm, D, sometimes Jessica. I was lucky with Mitch...him more than anyone I wanted things to be good with, to clear the air. That happened, with only a little bit of talking the air was cleared between us.
I don't know what the future holds for me or my husband. At times things seem like they are falling apart at the seams with our families at other times WE want to wring THEIR necks.
I know anyone who still cares and still reads what little I post here will think I may be whining...but I don't write anymore. I need to so bad...I guess I just feel I never have time or any inspiration anymore...who knows maybe I will actually try and force myself to write. Sometimes that helps. Maybe I'm just blocking it because I don't want to hurt.
I've not told Tim any of this I don't think I want to. He worries so much as it is. Worries about bills etc. Hopefully the new year will bring new ideas, and new starts. Wish us luck with the new year...
Kat Out