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I'm just a guy
no one consequental
Just a guy
just a kid really -maybe, not too sure right now -i'll get back to you later
I know that the experiences which will occur in the immediate future will influence the events of the rest of my life
and that the events that have already occured will influence the events about to occur
I sometimes feel cheated, like i had no say in the matter, like just because I've been damaged that I'll never recover
and maybe i won't, maybe i won't
I'd like to think that i will emerge this teenage wasteland stronger
but i do have my doubts
I lie in bed at night, nearly every night
and the only way that i can fall asleep is if i pretend I'm someone else
I create worlds of my imagination, some based on my life -the way i wish it were, and some of fantasy
I have been a theif, middle-dark age neo future blacksmith
I had secret passageway that led all over the darkened city.
I have been a vampire, masked to scold off sunlight, a wizard of great power
I was feared by peasants and captured by sorcerers
I have been a skateboarder.
More to the point I was a good skateboarder, and people liked me
I have a million times been myself, but only with irresistable charm so as no one would say bad things using my name
Various people I have imagined have found me interesting, intriquieing even, and they listened when i spoke.
I have been of a million worlds each harbouring different stars and rules
And i have been happy in my waking dreams
I sometimes think that when i finally leave this place that i will be lacking of important teenage experiences:
relationships, friends, parties, wild adventures
I picture these things are occuring while i stay home and try to find a television program interesting enough to dull my mind
I will never get these years back, they were supposed to be my best
I find sadly that i sleep untill late afternoon so that i can dream longer and spend more time as somebody else.
I'm not sure what has prompted me to write this,
but i was lieing in my bed, trying to creat a persona for the night, and none apeared
so, unable to sleep i got up and began to write.
After all, I'm just a guy
nobody consequental,
when i'm not asleep, i got nothing to do.
no one consequental
Just a guy
just a kid really -maybe, not too sure right now -i'll get back to you later
I know that the experiences which will occur in the immediate future will influence the events of the rest of my life
and that the events that have already occured will influence the events about to occur
I sometimes feel cheated, like i had no say in the matter, like just because I've been damaged that I'll never recover
and maybe i won't, maybe i won't
I'd like to think that i will emerge this teenage wasteland stronger
but i do have my doubts
I lie in bed at night, nearly every night
and the only way that i can fall asleep is if i pretend I'm someone else
I create worlds of my imagination, some based on my life -the way i wish it were, and some of fantasy
I have been a theif, middle-dark age neo future blacksmith
I had secret passageway that led all over the darkened city.
I have been a vampire, masked to scold off sunlight, a wizard of great power
I was feared by peasants and captured by sorcerers
I have been a skateboarder.
More to the point I was a good skateboarder, and people liked me
I have a million times been myself, but only with irresistable charm so as no one would say bad things using my name
Various people I have imagined have found me interesting, intriquieing even, and they listened when i spoke.
I have been of a million worlds each harbouring different stars and rules
And i have been happy in my waking dreams
I sometimes think that when i finally leave this place that i will be lacking of important teenage experiences:
relationships, friends, parties, wild adventures
I picture these things are occuring while i stay home and try to find a television program interesting enough to dull my mind
I will never get these years back, they were supposed to be my best
I find sadly that i sleep untill late afternoon so that i can dream longer and spend more time as somebody else.
I'm not sure what has prompted me to write this,
but i was lieing in my bed, trying to creat a persona for the night, and none apeared
so, unable to sleep i got up and began to write.
After all, I'm just a guy
nobody consequental,
when i'm not asleep, i got nothing to do.