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you know.. it really is bullshit..
it really is bullshit how people claim they are always there for you.
but in all honesty, [they hardly actually are]- for me anyway.
im sick and fucking tired of people hanging out with me,
and then once the next best thing comes along leaving me out to dry.
im sick of people always pushing me to the side like that.
if you love me, you wouldnt make me feel like shit.
i want to fucking kick your teeth in sometimes.
honestly, its not anyone in particular either..
its just everyone.
everyone, you all do it.
everyone runs away.
everyone runs away for a boy who will be gone in the blink of an eye.
i was always loyal , but i was always second best .
regardless to how this entry may sound,
today was a good day and ive been really happy..
but i just keep thinking about it in the back of my mind..
cause i can tell, eveyrones wants to get away they just dont want to hurt my feelings.
well your no good at hiding it.. so i suggest just admitting it.
last night i went to bed at 7:30 am.
i just kept thinking and kept on thinking.
im a fucking insomniac and its horrible.
i wish i knew more people that ACTUALLY cared about me.
sometimes i wonder.. why i hardly know any loyal people..
why do people just drop me at the drop of a dime like that?
whatever. fuck it.
fuck you.
i want my septum pierced and monroe pierced and im good to go.
really thats all i need, and i figure il probably get my septum first cause its easier to not always see.
i dont care if you think its fucking ugly, or a bull piercing, or anything else.
hahaha . glad we got that covered.
i just really dont care about anything.
it really is bullshit how people claim they are always there for you.
but in all honesty, [they hardly actually are]- for me anyway.
im sick and fucking tired of people hanging out with me,
and then once the next best thing comes along leaving me out to dry.
im sick of people always pushing me to the side like that.
if you love me, you wouldnt make me feel like shit.
i want to fucking kick your teeth in sometimes.
honestly, its not anyone in particular either..
its just everyone.
everyone, you all do it.
everyone runs away.
everyone runs away for a boy who will be gone in the blink of an eye.
i was always loyal , but i was always second best .
regardless to how this entry may sound,
today was a good day and ive been really happy..
but i just keep thinking about it in the back of my mind..
cause i can tell, eveyrones wants to get away they just dont want to hurt my feelings.
well your no good at hiding it.. so i suggest just admitting it.
last night i went to bed at 7:30 am.
i just kept thinking and kept on thinking.
im a fucking insomniac and its horrible.
i wish i knew more people that ACTUALLY cared about me.
sometimes i wonder.. why i hardly know any loyal people..
why do people just drop me at the drop of a dime like that?
whatever. fuck it.
fuck you.
i want my septum pierced and monroe pierced and im good to go.
really thats all i need, and i figure il probably get my septum first cause its easier to not always see.
i dont care if you think its fucking ugly, or a bull piercing, or anything else.
hahaha . glad we got that covered.
i just really dont care about anything.