Mmmm, coffee...
For some reason, it doesn't seem real that I'm leaving in 2 and a half
weeks. And by 2 and a half weeks, I mean two weeks and one day. On
Wednesday, January the 25th, I will be gone.
...Nope, still doesn't seem like it's really happening. I keep having dreams of hanging out with friends, and talking to them, and saying goodbye, in some cases (last night I dreamt I was leaving today), and then I wake up and think it really happened... It's kind of annoying, because it's slightly emotionally taxing to say goodbye to friends, even in dreams. So basically I'm going through it twice - once in real life, once while I'm asleep. Grreeaaatt..
I saw Memoirs of a Geisha last night, and it left me feeling a little melancholy. It wasn't a very.. hopeful.. movie. And that, mixed with working way too much for my liking, all the things I have to do for Smith (shopping, calling people I hardly know to get advice, packing, shipping stuff, ugh, sending in all the forms they gave me, etc...), and other little items of busyness or sadness, makes me a little tired.
...Plus, I haven't been getting enough sleep. That also makes me a little tired.
My dream of spending this winter break reading at Barnes & Noble every day, drinking tea and reflecting on life, is.. no more, basically. I have been so busy I've hardly had time to think. I don't really enjoy being busy, so this is hard for me. Last Friday, I had a zillion (okay, seven) opportunities to hang out with different people, and I had to choose only one. Difficult, I say. I'd rather have one opportunity, and not feel like I'm missing out on seven other things (one of them being sitting reading at Barnes).
Sigh.
...In happier news, my peacoat from J.Crew came yesterday! It's warm and heavy and the lining is sea green on the body and a random mustard yellow on the sleeves. The actual coat is tan - "camel," according to the website. I like it a lot. I'm still wondering what other coats to get, though - I want cute ones, but I need to go for function rather than form, I know. Otherwise.. I'll die.
...I'm so optimistic, eh?
Anyway, to recap: I'm scared and sad about leaving in 15 days. Sad to leave friends, family, dear old California, and basically my entire life... and scared to be starting someplace new, where the weather reaches negative degrees, and where I don't know if I'll be able to succeed. Hopefully, when I arrive, everything will just.. fall into place - the brisk air will enliven me, I will suddenly be a master at making friends, and my brain cells will start working overtime. Oh and I'll never procrastinate again. Ha.
Okay time to get ready for work. Gilmore Girls is on tonight! Talk to ya'll soonnnnnn, I'm working til 3:30 today and not at all tomorrow or Thursday, so hanging out is a must! <3.
...Nope, still doesn't seem like it's really happening. I keep having dreams of hanging out with friends, and talking to them, and saying goodbye, in some cases (last night I dreamt I was leaving today), and then I wake up and think it really happened... It's kind of annoying, because it's slightly emotionally taxing to say goodbye to friends, even in dreams. So basically I'm going through it twice - once in real life, once while I'm asleep. Grreeaaatt..
I saw Memoirs of a Geisha last night, and it left me feeling a little melancholy. It wasn't a very.. hopeful.. movie. And that, mixed with working way too much for my liking, all the things I have to do for Smith (shopping, calling people I hardly know to get advice, packing, shipping stuff, ugh, sending in all the forms they gave me, etc...), and other little items of busyness or sadness, makes me a little tired.
...Plus, I haven't been getting enough sleep. That also makes me a little tired.
My dream of spending this winter break reading at Barnes & Noble every day, drinking tea and reflecting on life, is.. no more, basically. I have been so busy I've hardly had time to think. I don't really enjoy being busy, so this is hard for me. Last Friday, I had a zillion (okay, seven) opportunities to hang out with different people, and I had to choose only one. Difficult, I say. I'd rather have one opportunity, and not feel like I'm missing out on seven other things (one of them being sitting reading at Barnes).
Sigh.
...In happier news, my peacoat from J.Crew came yesterday! It's warm and heavy and the lining is sea green on the body and a random mustard yellow on the sleeves. The actual coat is tan - "camel," according to the website. I like it a lot. I'm still wondering what other coats to get, though - I want cute ones, but I need to go for function rather than form, I know. Otherwise.. I'll die.
...I'm so optimistic, eh?
Anyway, to recap: I'm scared and sad about leaving in 15 days. Sad to leave friends, family, dear old California, and basically my entire life... and scared to be starting someplace new, where the weather reaches negative degrees, and where I don't know if I'll be able to succeed. Hopefully, when I arrive, everything will just.. fall into place - the brisk air will enliven me, I will suddenly be a master at making friends, and my brain cells will start working overtime. Oh and I'll never procrastinate again. Ha.
Okay time to get ready for work. Gilmore Girls is on tonight! Talk to ya'll soonnnnnn, I'm working til 3:30 today and not at all tomorrow or Thursday, so hanging out is a must! <3.