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you are one of the most important people in my life. i love you to death, and i honestly don't know what i would do without you. but as your friend, i have to be truthful and honest with you. i have been down, sad, depressed, and many more things, and i can help you. let me tell you a little story.
my dad is probably the most important person im my life right now. he has been there for me throughout everything, and i mean everything, with me. he has been there for me like you wouldn't believe. you know my problems, so i'm not going to go into detail. i'm just going to say that most of my problems were with my mom. he had experienced evrything i was dealing with before they got divorced. he knew how it felt to have her get drunk at some get-together like a work funtion, or in my case, a softball party, and have to bring her home because she is too messed up to understand what she is saying or doing. he knew what it was like for me when i had to spend the night at a friend's house trying to get my sister to stop crying and go to sleep becasue my mom was so drunk that my friend's mom wouldn't let us go with her. he knew what it was like for me to have to ride in the car while she drove home drunk and then wrecked. he knew what it was like when i was left with the cops because she was taken in for a DUI and i didn't have anywhere else to go but with the cops. he knew about all these things. he knew that i went into depression. he saw me when i wouldn't eat or sleep for days because of it. he saw all these hard things i dealt with. and you know what the best thing he ever taught me was? it was that we have a choice. we have a choice to be happy or sad. if you get it in your head to enjoy something, then you will enjoy it. it you get in your head that you will have fun, you will. but if you get it in your head that something isn't going to be fun, then it won't be. for me, this was life. he was telling me that i could get it in my head to enjoy it, or get it in my head to think it was horrible. it took me over a year and a half, but finally i realized the truth in it. i know you don't want to hear this. i sure as hell didn't. but i love you to death and i dont want you to go through what i went through. it sucks. and i wouldn't do or go through the trouble of saying this if i didn't care about you, or want the best for you. i really really do love you, and i'm here if you want to talk.
and that goes to everyone. i love yall and i'm here for everyone.
my dad is probably the most important person im my life right now. he has been there for me throughout everything, and i mean everything, with me. he has been there for me like you wouldn't believe. you know my problems, so i'm not going to go into detail. i'm just going to say that most of my problems were with my mom. he had experienced evrything i was dealing with before they got divorced. he knew how it felt to have her get drunk at some get-together like a work funtion, or in my case, a softball party, and have to bring her home because she is too messed up to understand what she is saying or doing. he knew what it was like for me when i had to spend the night at a friend's house trying to get my sister to stop crying and go to sleep becasue my mom was so drunk that my friend's mom wouldn't let us go with her. he knew what it was like for me to have to ride in the car while she drove home drunk and then wrecked. he knew what it was like when i was left with the cops because she was taken in for a DUI and i didn't have anywhere else to go but with the cops. he knew about all these things. he knew that i went into depression. he saw me when i wouldn't eat or sleep for days because of it. he saw all these hard things i dealt with. and you know what the best thing he ever taught me was? it was that we have a choice. we have a choice to be happy or sad. if you get it in your head to enjoy something, then you will enjoy it. it you get in your head that you will have fun, you will. but if you get it in your head that something isn't going to be fun, then it won't be. for me, this was life. he was telling me that i could get it in my head to enjoy it, or get it in my head to think it was horrible. it took me over a year and a half, but finally i realized the truth in it. i know you don't want to hear this. i sure as hell didn't. but i love you to death and i dont want you to go through what i went through. it sucks. and i wouldn't do or go through the trouble of saying this if i didn't care about you, or want the best for you. i really really do love you, and i'm here if you want to talk.
and that goes to everyone. i love yall and i'm here for everyone.