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well yeah i dont even know whats goin on with me? im tryin to sort things out, everything just seemed to hit at one time. things have ended and things have started, and ive missing old life styles, but im scared of them too. and the more i think about the way i used to live the more i get to missing old feelings, and the more i want them and the easiest thing would be to give in because that would make all my problems turn into one. thinkging about old friends, and how the new ones have changed so much. things in my family are weird, everything is switched around latly? its so hard to not give in to the one thing that would make me oblivious to what is going on around me, because before im sure there was this much shit to deal with too, i just didnt give a danm. maybe i dont mean half the things i say, or maybe i do mean it all and i wish i could say more. i dont even know why i write in this thing.......now to htink of it how dumb am i. which i knew and i dont care i guess. im tired of being fake