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I've read through some of my last entries and I am ashamed. What does all this life matter? It is a vapor in the wind, and I'm worried about homework and not getting my way. Little things get to me and make me upset, but what does it matter? It doesn't. Life is too short to spend sitting around feeling sorry for myself. My life is but a moment, and then it vanishes. What is it going to get me if I win the most popular award, or ms. got-it-together trophy? Nothing. all of this is vanity of vanities. My God, where have I thrown my life? my life is of little value because i have placed and invested my time, trust, love and life into things that are worthless and mortal. what will i take with me when i die? nothing. so if i go to hell, i can't take my air condition or fans to cool off, so why does stuff matter? will i be tested on the square root of anything to see if i am saved? NO, so why does school take over? O God I pray a change will come over me. Let something good come out of this life of shame and corruption. To live is Christ and to die is gain. But what if you don't live as Christ? Then death is eternal damnation and separation. Sorry whoever reads this, I'm just trying to wake myself up and set things straight within myself. I just hate it takes death to open my eyes.