Cut me through and through

[4ft10inonesock]

Things are good here. I'm settling in. I'm talking to Lola more now...and my Mom. Yeah, so things are pretty cool. My family is amazing, and I'm plainly just having a really fun time. I missed it here so much. I've agreed upon a reasonable time frame in which I'll be getting Lola back, and am relaxing mentally for now. I'll be working again soon,

Comments

[jemmifire]

pics of your new hair plz!!!

I fucking misssss you!!!! I'll write more of a better reply in a bit, I'm running out the door

[jemmifire]

oh boy.. o.0 I thought you married Larry lol..
and how come you don't have lola?? I'm so confused :(
I'm glad things are pretty good in general though, I miss you sooooo much

[athenalove]

Same thought on everything.... so confused.

Miss you & Love you!

[4ft10inonesock]

I'll definitely go into detail soon. It's a difficult subject, and I'm in the process of dealing with it. When I am emotionally "there" I will write it in my journal, and then transfer it here. I just pretty much developed a really bad habit and brokedown mentally and emotionally. I took steps to deal with it immediately, and find myself earning my life back and getting myself together emotionally so that I am no longer so sick. I am doing amazing, though. It's been rough, but it was a turning point I needed to better myself physically and mentally.

[4ft10inonesock]

I married way too fast, and was trying to fill a void. I didn't marry Larry, and in fact I am just trying to establish enough of a civil relationship to allow a connection between him and his daughter at this point. I struggled to call him for the first time Tuesday, and it was rough. I am waiting for him to feel okay enough to call me about Lola. I really regret my marraige to the "other guy". As much as I love him and always will, we are very much over, though. I am just trying to move on and find myself outside of being a mother and loving him. You know how it is being with someone in your life so long. You really begin to characterize yourself by that relationship. Anyhow, I am doing wonderful and look foward to finding who I am again sober, alone, and independent.