oo..life.
it's been a crazy past week. I made it thru my first week of dakota, hating every day that I went there.& only getting lost once. ( yay for me ) I miss South lake. & knowing everyone in the hall ways. & arguing w. lisa :-\<--- that pry the most..lol. It just feels like I am living a new life. I am hoping and praying that I am able to come back my Senior year!.
I have met a couple of new people. I've known Skank face CaitLin for like 5 years :-P. So I got intorduced to her friends. i sit w. them at lunch. Then theres Alyssa. Shes really nice. She lives around the corner from me. I alternate riding w. her and then Caitlin Ryan and Racheal to school. Ryan is so frickin funny. but he pry hates me :).Then there is Mike, Randy, James in my math class. they are really nice. But Randy is annoying. But none of these people will compare to my friends at SL. I don't feel confortable w. these people. It makes me sad..
Joey came over last night :). && we passed out candy and watched Theres something about mary & ate pizza :-D. I miss seeing him everyday. he's the love of my life!. I don't want things to change between us. But we are amazingly sweet & can make it thur anything.
I miss my old house in my little old neighborhood. w. my nosie neighbors && being able just to walk down 5 houses and be at the park w. everyone that hung out up there. I miss waiting out side for mike joey and ethan b4 school and talking to my god mom and yelling at milly for bothering all the little kids. I miss my doggies. I miss my grandma counting out change for lunch money and making me mad by talking about what I was wearing. I miss being able to just walk home if I didnt want to stay there. I miss being able to walk around my house in my bra. ( hey. It's fun ). I miss being there w. Joey and my grandma just talkng about randoms and my grandma giving me advice. I jsut miss my old life.
I really don;t understand why things happen. I am always thinking about if my grandma knew what was going on. Or if she was scared. or if she was in pain. I get frusterated knowing I had to baby-sit and my aunt there alone w. her getting ready to go to the ICU. i could of been talking to her, & being there with her becuase she was scared to even go there. But no i had to babysit for my uncle who wasnt even there in there w. her. I wish I could of told her i loved her & have her tell me that everything was going to ok and how much I appreicated her. it all happedn so fast. and I don;t understand..:'(..
this week is going by fast thank god!. tomorrow is wensday. this weekened i have that stupid baby for Parenting. & I will be at my moms saturdy and sunday for a late family birthday party for me. and then my sisters actual birthday is that weekend.
but I have to go...
ugh ...
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