The end
It is offishially the end of Will Cole being in my life, probably forever. He changed his phone numer so that he doesn't have to talk to me. Him and his new girlfriend can fuck eachothers brains out for all I care. It really and truely is time to move on. I realized something the other day. This break up may actually be a good thing for me. I used to spend so much time making sure that he was getting everything he needed out of the navy and I always wanted to make sure that his life was going well. In all of that carring I missed out on my life. I missed so many important things because all I could think about was him. I realized that I need to start focusing on me and my future. The things that I do now will effect the rest of my life. I have my own life and it's time for me to start living it.
And on a less happy note I'm never dating again. Through all of this I realized somethings. If there is even one person in the world who would do what Will did then I don't want to date. I always thought that the world was a good place but I don't believe that anymore. I also realized that there is no such thing as true love. If there is then why did I lose my true love? I think that romance novels and chick flicks and happily ever after are all just made up so that we can believe that there is something to live for. Without that little bit of hope that it could happen to us there is no point in trying. There is no hope. There is no true love. There are only broken people who are only out for themselves and don't care who they step on as long as they get where they want to be. I thought that love could fix broken people, but I was wrong. I'm no better then everyone else. I'm broken too, because I put everything I had into something that was never there. I'm one of the most jaded people in the world and it's fine because I'm finally in touch with reality. I'm not dating again. There is nothing a man can give me that I can't give myself. I can't let myself get hurt again. There's no point without the idea of finding that one guy. Without that there is no reason. If there is true love like in the fairy tales then my prince charming rode off into the sunset with one of the servents and left the princes alone at the ball. I don't think that love exists anymore. The only things that are out there are luck, hope, broken people, and the shaddered dreams of all the girls who believed in prince charming. That's al there is and it's not worth trying for anymore. Doomed to be singel forever is the stroy of my life.
And on a less happy note I'm never dating again. Through all of this I realized somethings. If there is even one person in the world who would do what Will did then I don't want to date. I always thought that the world was a good place but I don't believe that anymore. I also realized that there is no such thing as true love. If there is then why did I lose my true love? I think that romance novels and chick flicks and happily ever after are all just made up so that we can believe that there is something to live for. Without that little bit of hope that it could happen to us there is no point in trying. There is no hope. There is no true love. There are only broken people who are only out for themselves and don't care who they step on as long as they get where they want to be. I thought that love could fix broken people, but I was wrong. I'm no better then everyone else. I'm broken too, because I put everything I had into something that was never there. I'm one of the most jaded people in the world and it's fine because I'm finally in touch with reality. I'm not dating again. There is nothing a man can give me that I can't give myself. I can't let myself get hurt again. There's no point without the idea of finding that one guy. Without that there is no reason. If there is true love like in the fairy tales then my prince charming rode off into the sunset with one of the servents and left the princes alone at the ball. I don't think that love exists anymore. The only things that are out there are luck, hope, broken people, and the shaddered dreams of all the girls who believed in prince charming. That's al there is and it's not worth trying for anymore. Doomed to be singel forever is the stroy of my life.