Sometimes you just wanna ring her neck
Well, looks like Britt and I both had a bad night at one point last night. Everything was fine until I decided to go to bed at 12:30. Brooke came out and told me that she and erica are moving out and into a basement appartment together next year with a friend of theirs. That's fine, and I don't have control over ppl and both girls are giving me fair warning, however they ensured me just before christmas that they were definately staying next year. You can't trust people's word.
Anyway, Erica told me this weekend, and brooke just decided yesterday. The thing that really gets me is the real reason Erica's moving. She told Justine, and well, Justine and I are really close, so she told me. Apparently Erica thinks I'm this really mean girl who yells at her. This is not true, Erica is a very sensitive person, and at the beginning of the year, she told me that if anything was bothering me, to tell her because she'd rather know and not piss anyone off. Well, Erica's a very forgetful person, so there were somethings that bothered me and I told her politely and sometimes had to write her a note to remind her. Ohh and another thing... she tells me everything that pisses her off .. and holy fuck, I don't care... Like JUST now, she barges in here talking about how she doesn't get her student loan and will owe money for not paying on time... yeah.. ok... what do you want me to say about it ... here she is yelling at me and gets mad if I don't respond or agree with her. What do you want me to say?! I don't care...
Anyway... last night after Brooke told me this, I came up to my room and burst into uncontrolable tears because I felt like this horrible person that no one wants to live with. This is just bringing back memories of high school when most of my friends ditched me after my dad died and left me abandoned. If Stacy doesn't stay to work here, I'm the only one left in the house with one of Erica's friends who I don't even know. Erica just signed her up as of this past weekend. As much as Erica pisses me off, I put up with a lot... whatever.
Anyway, last night at 12:45 I called and woke up my mom sobbing on the phone not knowing what I'm going to do... stay here or find random ppl, or live with friends which is risky business. I mean, if I get this upset with Erica this year whom I never knew exsisted before she came to sign the lease, can you imagine what would happen if I lived with any of my frosh girls from the mount? It's risky business. So, after crying on the phone for an hour, I took, a shower to blow off steam and then called Sean. He actaully answered and I said I needed some cheering up. He was out at a bar for his buddies birthday party, so he took an ATM moment, a special occurance for long distance calls haha, and ended up making me laugh in the end. That poor boy has pink eye haha. I havn't seen him in 2 weeks 'cause my lap top is still broken and in the shop. I miss seeing him.
I'm trying to avoid Erica because it just makes me mad, and this is probably making me seem like "the mean girl"... but I'm doing it so I don't snap at her and make her cry. Self sacrifice.
I'm going to just think about summer, and living with sean for a month, and us coming back east together for a while haha. There... smile.
Anyway, Erica told me this weekend, and brooke just decided yesterday. The thing that really gets me is the real reason Erica's moving. She told Justine, and well, Justine and I are really close, so she told me. Apparently Erica thinks I'm this really mean girl who yells at her. This is not true, Erica is a very sensitive person, and at the beginning of the year, she told me that if anything was bothering me, to tell her because she'd rather know and not piss anyone off. Well, Erica's a very forgetful person, so there were somethings that bothered me and I told her politely and sometimes had to write her a note to remind her. Ohh and another thing... she tells me everything that pisses her off .. and holy fuck, I don't care... Like JUST now, she barges in here talking about how she doesn't get her student loan and will owe money for not paying on time... yeah.. ok... what do you want me to say about it ... here she is yelling at me and gets mad if I don't respond or agree with her. What do you want me to say?! I don't care...
Anyway... last night after Brooke told me this, I came up to my room and burst into uncontrolable tears because I felt like this horrible person that no one wants to live with. This is just bringing back memories of high school when most of my friends ditched me after my dad died and left me abandoned. If Stacy doesn't stay to work here, I'm the only one left in the house with one of Erica's friends who I don't even know. Erica just signed her up as of this past weekend. As much as Erica pisses me off, I put up with a lot... whatever.
Anyway, last night at 12:45 I called and woke up my mom sobbing on the phone not knowing what I'm going to do... stay here or find random ppl, or live with friends which is risky business. I mean, if I get this upset with Erica this year whom I never knew exsisted before she came to sign the lease, can you imagine what would happen if I lived with any of my frosh girls from the mount? It's risky business. So, after crying on the phone for an hour, I took, a shower to blow off steam and then called Sean. He actaully answered and I said I needed some cheering up. He was out at a bar for his buddies birthday party, so he took an ATM moment, a special occurance for long distance calls haha, and ended up making me laugh in the end. That poor boy has pink eye haha. I havn't seen him in 2 weeks 'cause my lap top is still broken and in the shop. I miss seeing him.
I'm trying to avoid Erica because it just makes me mad, and this is probably making me seem like "the mean girl"... but I'm doing it so I don't snap at her and make her cry. Self sacrifice.
I'm going to just think about summer, and living with sean for a month, and us coming back east together for a while haha. There... smile.