Forever
So it's been crazy long since i have been on this damn site. I missed it i must say. I do miss the random little things that i have been through this year and last. It is almost my b-day kind of...so i will be 17 in a nother like ...wait...exactly a month. Nice!
Anyway. I have been dealing with crazy emotional shit. I really don't need anymore drama in my life. I am so sick of people just dumping their drama on me like it's my fucking business who they fuck and or suck. I don't give a fucking damn. I don't know...i don't actually mean that. I just really am sick of being the person to listen and give advice, and then some people will not listen to my problems and give me advice. I just hate the way some people are just so snobby.
I do feel like i am losing a big part of my friend bubble. Some relationships are just slipping away...and thats partly my fault. I have never been so afraid of graduating. I don't want to leave the protective bubble that is high school.
I am so glad that this will never leave this bubble of chat window...so yeah
I recently discovered that i am jelous of Carissa. TO have all the attention and all just the random love here and there. She has most of the teachers thinking she is a great tutor and stuff. I kind of strive to be the Carissa that remains at Empire-Academy when she is gone. I also have been kind of fighting for Kas's attention with Elisa and her. Not to say that i want it romantically or anything, but just because Kas is like a role model to me. I have no idea where my head is.
I feel like i am hurting a bunch of people lately...just because i probably am. But really...i don't care. People hurt me alot...and i do mean alot...so i feel like they can have a taste of their own medicine for once.
Anyway. I have been dealing with crazy emotional shit. I really don't need anymore drama in my life. I am so sick of people just dumping their drama on me like it's my fucking business who they fuck and or suck. I don't give a fucking damn. I don't know...i don't actually mean that. I just really am sick of being the person to listen and give advice, and then some people will not listen to my problems and give me advice. I just hate the way some people are just so snobby.
I do feel like i am losing a big part of my friend bubble. Some relationships are just slipping away...and thats partly my fault. I have never been so afraid of graduating. I don't want to leave the protective bubble that is high school.
I am so glad that this will never leave this bubble of chat window...so yeah
I recently discovered that i am jelous of Carissa. TO have all the attention and all just the random love here and there. She has most of the teachers thinking she is a great tutor and stuff. I kind of strive to be the Carissa that remains at Empire-Academy when she is gone. I also have been kind of fighting for Kas's attention with Elisa and her. Not to say that i want it romantically or anything, but just because Kas is like a role model to me. I have no idea where my head is.
I feel like i am hurting a bunch of people lately...just because i probably am. But really...i don't care. People hurt me alot...and i do mean alot...so i feel like they can have a taste of their own medicine for once.