cant sleep
well i cant sleep but im flippin sleepy. so what am i doing? sittin here talkin to brando and slut muffin LOL. and im listenin to in a different light. I got alot on my mind. blah
will life ever make sense? i doubt it. i wish i understood stuff. but i guess its not meant for me to understand just yet. will it ever be? who knows. I went back and read some old journals. man. i talked about alotta guys in them lol. OBESSED over a few but we aint going there lol. it makes me sad to read about the space between me and my best friend(guy) Todd. i dnno. blah. some entries cracked me up..some depressed me. some made me mad. some were just pointless. Crazy. I miss being friends with Lee. well the old lee. everyone changes i know but still. it sucks. the journals came along after my lee obession, thankfully lol. my friends defantly got enough notes to black mail me with for the REST of my life. What did i see in him? I will never under stand that. have all the dudes i've dated been jerks? maybe? I still wonder what happened to Cody. I have no feelings for him i just wanna know what happened ya know? i guess i'll never find out. oh well.
"Where ever u will go" is a good song. True love. That's kind of a depressing subject. I mean its the best thing in the world but its also the worst. ::sigh:: Oh well. Alotta ppl are in love...Brandi and Brandon........Aly and Tman.....Kasie is in love with Cory Cory is in love with Kasie but Kasie hurt him so...etc.
"I'll Be" is on.Gotta luv it. even though its sad. one thing ive always wanted since i heard this song was to have a guy sing it to me. Corny i know. just dont let it get out lol. Blah. too much going on in my head. its almost 1am. *yawns* i know i should be sleeping but i cant lol. so. I wonder if things are gonna be different now or if its gonna be the same ole shit. Blah. 18 aint all that great lol. Hopefully it will get better though. Maybe...::crosses fingers::
I wonder what kinda dress brandi is gonna pick out for the brides maids? i get to be in the wedding..whoop whoop. ill prolly be the shortest brides maid lol. but oh well. ok well im gonna try to get some sleep or something. so nite yall
Live Love and Party it up Damm-Ittt
~Jess
