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Was reading dougie journal.. and it just made me cry.....
I think its my period is comming but anyways...
ITs true tho... we dont take things for granted.....
My older was born termially ill....
his illness is Tuberclorosis(Not sure if its the RIGHT spelling but close enough)
Basically he was tumors in his major organs... brain,liver,kidneys...He's turns 22 in feburary...He's the worst case of that illness on record to live THAT long......People who tend to have tend to be 'normal', by means of normal, live a life without problems, have a normal job,school, etc. My brother on the other hand.... is a baby... he cant feed himself nor change his diaper, nor walk, or even talk... 10 month baby stuck in a 22 yr old body.......No one knows when his time will come.....every year when then would do his physical exam. they would say he only have 6 months to a year to live..... and every would be the same thing till my mom just had with them. and she wouldnt have them give him one. cuz the results would say the same.... and sadly enough he would live on...... my mother stop when he was 13.......... almost ten year later... he's still living....... ITs not common for people who have his illness.. live that long.... Common age of death is between 15 to 19 years of life with that illness. And thats for people who live 'normal' lifes also....... and my brother to make it 22.. is only god mircale......I dont know how my life would be without him.... He's a great part of who i am. even tho he doesnt talk or anything but he help me be who I am today......caring loving person with all.. I guess thats why like one of dougie's journal i answer about it wouldnt how the person look even if he was ugly you know......... u love a person for there heart and soul..... u see a true person thru there soul... the warmth the careless.......... my brother cant talk.......... but i love to death..... and i know he loves me.. just the same......... i hope i would never have to say bye..........
Live life like there was no tomorrow...
cuz when that time shall come....
u wont be looking back wishin' u had done more with lil time u had in life..
Live life with every second......
take each breath like it was ur last.........
........::::::CONTINUATION::::..........
I just realized these last few days...on some things that make me ME.....I realized what type of friends i have, what i look for in a friendship, why i get easily attach to people, why i go and look beyond the outside and see the beauty within..........but also realized how people ,,,, mostly ALL people... are so fuckin rude and ignonart.............. WHY MEN!!!!!! only look for OUTSIDE features............sometimes I WISH i was dog ugly.. u know? really?...........just so i would be left alone.....well the only time i've EVER let alone and guys done hit on me or my friends when im with my brother.....it SAD.... and i fucking hate it...... at times makes me fucking HATE people even my friends.... people STARE and judges and think they know everything BUT THEY DONT and THEY WONT........... U DONT KNOW ME..... U DONT KNOW MY BROTHER ... y judges? a pretty chick cant be with a ugly disable guy.... he CANT be my brother..... cuz if he is im sick too???? im full of disease and who knoes what shit? it aint AIDS what he has u know?eh..... reminds of RELIGIOUS people too. NOT ALL but most. too.. if u HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT for GOD.......... and U LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEEEEEEEE god.......... U LOVE OTHERS?
but u cant love someone that CANT talk, WALK, or even feed himself>? cuz he looks sick?....
Whatever
i've had enough with this world... if i could i honestly would kill myself to get out if it...
im tierd of MEN... going for only appearance.. i want SOMEONE TO LOVE ME FOR ME@... not just my looks for my ass and big tits nice and perfect smile.......i want someone to love me for who i am and what i believe at least...someone to love me and see me how i see the WORLD...open heart and everything...........................
i wish i could anything but me............so i wouldnt have to suffer........... being me.....
~*~ you guys thinks you know me... but u have no clue what i'm about, im one in a trillion....and NO ONE LIKE ME...~*~
blahhhh
I think its my period is comming but anyways...
ITs true tho... we dont take things for granted.....
My older was born termially ill....
his illness is Tuberclorosis(Not sure if its the RIGHT spelling but close enough)
Basically he was tumors in his major organs... brain,liver,kidneys...He's turns 22 in feburary...He's the worst case of that illness on record to live THAT long......People who tend to have tend to be 'normal', by means of normal, live a life without problems, have a normal job,school, etc. My brother on the other hand.... is a baby... he cant feed himself nor change his diaper, nor walk, or even talk... 10 month baby stuck in a 22 yr old body.......No one knows when his time will come.....every year when then would do his physical exam. they would say he only have 6 months to a year to live..... and every would be the same thing till my mom just had with them. and she wouldnt have them give him one. cuz the results would say the same.... and sadly enough he would live on...... my mother stop when he was 13.......... almost ten year later... he's still living....... ITs not common for people who have his illness.. live that long.... Common age of death is between 15 to 19 years of life with that illness. And thats for people who live 'normal' lifes also....... and my brother to make it 22.. is only god mircale......I dont know how my life would be without him.... He's a great part of who i am. even tho he doesnt talk or anything but he help me be who I am today......caring loving person with all.. I guess thats why like one of dougie's journal i answer about it wouldnt how the person look even if he was ugly you know......... u love a person for there heart and soul..... u see a true person thru there soul... the warmth the careless.......... my brother cant talk.......... but i love to death..... and i know he loves me.. just the same......... i hope i would never have to say bye..........
Live life like there was no tomorrow...
cuz when that time shall come....
u wont be looking back wishin' u had done more with lil time u had in life..
Live life with every second......
take each breath like it was ur last.........
........::::::CONTINUATION::::..........
I just realized these last few days...on some things that make me ME.....I realized what type of friends i have, what i look for in a friendship, why i get easily attach to people, why i go and look beyond the outside and see the beauty within..........but also realized how people ,,,, mostly ALL people... are so fuckin rude and ignonart.............. WHY MEN!!!!!! only look for OUTSIDE features............sometimes I WISH i was dog ugly.. u know? really?...........just so i would be left alone.....well the only time i've EVER let alone and guys done hit on me or my friends when im with my brother.....it SAD.... and i fucking hate it...... at times makes me fucking HATE people even my friends.... people STARE and judges and think they know everything BUT THEY DONT and THEY WONT........... U DONT KNOW ME..... U DONT KNOW MY BROTHER ... y judges? a pretty chick cant be with a ugly disable guy.... he CANT be my brother..... cuz if he is im sick too???? im full of disease and who knoes what shit? it aint AIDS what he has u know?eh..... reminds of RELIGIOUS people too. NOT ALL but most. too.. if u HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT for GOD.......... and U LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEEEEEEEE god.......... U LOVE OTHERS?
but u cant love someone that CANT talk, WALK, or even feed himself>? cuz he looks sick?....
Whatever
i've had enough with this world... if i could i honestly would kill myself to get out if it...
im tierd of MEN... going for only appearance.. i want SOMEONE TO LOVE ME FOR ME@... not just my looks for my ass and big tits nice and perfect smile.......i want someone to love me for who i am and what i believe at least...someone to love me and see me how i see the WORLD...open heart and everything...........................
i wish i could anything but me............so i wouldnt have to suffer........... being me.....
~*~ you guys thinks you know me... but u have no clue what i'm about, im one in a trillion....and NO ONE LIKE ME...~*~
blahhhh